I met with Jack. He was never hard to track as you just had to stumble into the nearest bar and there he was. I don't know a lot about Jack, but I know that he grants wishes...even though they tend to have side effects, still...that is what he does.
"So kiddo, finally decided to crawl to me for a deal?" he said and laughed like a maniac.
"Yes!"
"Alright...anything particular you want?"
I wanted, what I stated in my last post. I wanted a life, a life of my own. It didn't take long to explain to him that.
"Alright..." he said and reached for a handshake "deal!"
Where am I now?
I don't know. Everything is dark and I'm surrounded by some sort of prison or a cage. I can't see anything past the bars.
All I have now are the clothes on my back & my laptop. I'm not sure what happened to the fact, but I haven't heard of him in what I perceive to be a long time. The clocks in my computer and on the internet don't work, they just show up a bunch of question marks. I don't know how long I've been here.
This is peaceful. This isn't death, this is fearless living. Outside of this I would have to deal with the fears. In here I can finally live in tranquility.
I won't be using this blog anymore. I don't see the point to it, considering that I'm no longer dealing with or helping the fears. I am just me.
I'm happy!
Goodbye.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Future!
What really is the point anymore?
I don't belong to the world of fears anymore...and frankly I don't even want to at this point. I would want a normal life, outside of the fears. I would want to live, read some blogs & maybe comment on them in peace. That is all I want at this point, all I can really hope for.
I know of only one man who could provide me with such a future.
I don't belong to the world of fears anymore...and frankly I don't even want to at this point. I would want a normal life, outside of the fears. I would want to live, read some blogs & maybe comment on them in peace. That is all I want at this point, all I can really hope for.
I know of only one man who could provide me with such a future.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Tears!
Davi appeared again, this time she wasn't easily warded off. This of course made it necessary for us to run outside in order to try to escape. Both me & Luci were rather tired, having just woken up and all.
We ended up in a dead end alley, Davi right
behind us. It all happened so fast that I barely was able to grasp what was
happening.
“Well…looks like you have no choice but to
give yourself to father, Qaphsiel”
Luci & me looked around & it was obvious that there was nothing we could do.
“Looks like you are in quite a jam here”
The fact pointed out, being of no use.
“Shut up!” I yelled at her.
Davi looked at us, preparing to kill us in
order to please her lord, but something came up. It was Slenderman, honest to god
Slenderman. He appeared! As you can imagine I was thrilled.
Davi seemed to stop once she saw Slenderman
and vanished, the coward!
“Cecilia…” He said as soon as he arrived. "will you join me once again?"
I hesitated for a bit, not enough to really
indicate no. But, it was long enough to make Slenderman impatient. He looked in
my direction; I could almost feel his anger towards me. As a servant,
I hadn’t really been the best up till this point. Not that Slenderman ever showed any indication that he cared.
Then he did something unexpected. He took
up Lucia by the throat, while looking at me through the whole time & slowly
started to squeeze her. I could hear the chocking sound well & even as it
progressed heard some bones cracking. Lucia would've screamed had she been able
to.
“STOP IT. I’LL JOIN YOU, I’LL COME BACK!
THAT WAS MY PLAN ALL ALONG ANYWAY!” I yelled failing to hold back my tears. I would've done something if I could have One move and I had been dead and I doubt Lucia would've wanted both of us to perish.
“Too late Cecilia” Slenderman said as he
squeezed once more. He looked at me, laying there on all fours soaking the
cement beneath me with tears as I saw him throw Lucia away like a common trash.
“What…what did you want from me? WHAT YOU BASTARD” I
screamed at him.
“Obedience Cecilia… I've given you too much
freedom, too much wiggle room to form thoughts. You’ve started to doubt not
only me…but the others as well. I can’t tolerate that!”
After Slenderman disappeared again I
crawled towards Lucia’s body. I didn't care anymore…
…nothing mattered. Who was I fooling
anymore trying to hold back my emotions? My humanity?
I just laid there, crying.
There was nothing else, I could do.
I just laid there, crying.
There was nothing else, I could do.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Timber!
Davi is no ordinary timberwolf. I don't know what the fuck she is, but an ordinary timberwolf she is not. Since when do timberwolfs have teleportation abilities? She just appeared in my room, somehow knowing that I had now moved to another hotel.
I went into a defensive position as if I was going to start a brawl with her.
"Come on Quaphsiel, just give up. It's not like anyone is here to kill you. In fact father has forbidden me from killing you. I'm just here for a chat"
I could feel the tension, she was up to something. I charged at her, upon which she teleported away, returning with a knife towards Lucia's throat.
"Ah ah ah! Calm down there Quaphsiel. Let's just talk about this, you pathetic human scum!"
Ouch, that hurt. I don't tolerate being called pathetic or scum for that matter.
We talked for a bit, none of which was all that important. After which I think I managed to ward her off, for the time being, simply because I promised to think about her offer.
I didn't know what to do. Seeing Luci being held at knife point like that; I think that was the first point that I just started to want a normal life.
Wouldn't that be wonderful?
To have a normal life?
Without fear!
I went into a defensive position as if I was going to start a brawl with her.
"Come on Quaphsiel, just give up. It's not like anyone is here to kill you. In fact father has forbidden me from killing you. I'm just here for a chat"
I could feel the tension, she was up to something. I charged at her, upon which she teleported away, returning with a knife towards Lucia's throat.
"Ah ah ah! Calm down there Quaphsiel. Let's just talk about this, you pathetic human scum!"
Ouch, that hurt. I don't tolerate being called pathetic or scum for that matter.
We talked for a bit, none of which was all that important. After which I think I managed to ward her off, for the time being, simply because I promised to think about her offer.
I didn't know what to do. Seeing Luci being held at knife point like that; I think that was the first point that I just started to want a normal life.
Wouldn't that be wonderful?
To have a normal life?
Without fear!
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Fuck!
No, not the good kind I'm afraid. Lucia messed up, that idiot! Perhaps I'm the naive idiot for actually trusting her that everything would be OK, in the domain of the Smiling Man!
The Smiling Man appeared and honest to god, I think I've never been as terrified of a fear as when I saw him. He was probably like 9 meters tall. He was wearing a suit, not unsimilar to Slenderman's suit in terms of fabric, but he had multicolored dots all over it.
Did Smiley as they call them have a face? You bet your blog-reading behind he did! Long flowy red hair streamed from underneath his porkpie hat. His face was indescribable it was almost as if somebody had just cut a face into his lack of one. It looked like he was bleeding.
I couldn't move. I of course wanted to do the sensible thing & run away. But it was as if the part of my brain that controlled movement just shut down out of fear.
He appeared just outside of the house, where I was just minding my own business.
"Cec-Cecilia" He said, kind of stuttering.
With every word he said, a bit of blood spewed from his cut mouth and onto me.
"Wha-What are yo-you doin-g her-here?" He asked.
I wiped the blood of my face.
"I...I was just here with Lucia, I needed protection from a timberwolf. She said that it would be alright"
"Lucia, ha-s no say in the mat-matter"
He looked back towards where Lucia was standing & looking concerned at me.
"I-" she uttered.
"Ce-Cecilia" he said, with more and more blood dripping from his mouth on the ground or on my head. "I thi-think yo-you shou-should join me. Beco-Become a rose-rose bride"
"I'd rather die!" I said, immediatly regretting the choice of words.
"Tha-That can be arr-arranged" he said.
He started to summon rose pallets out of thin air, which he casted in my direction. I tried to dodge, but unfortunately I couldn't make it in time. The attack had too broad of a spread. I was cut. This wasn't the biggest, but the way the pallets cut deep into the flesh, it was rather effective considered he used about 500 of them in one attack. I'm not sure, since I don't look into flowers that much, but the petals looked like they were of a scarlet colored lily.
Yes, it seems to be true, fears can't influence me, sure...but they can attack me, they can intimidate me and work a fear-servant like deal with me. I think I just didn't think about that. I'm not shielded by the fears, my mind is...with the exception of the Fact.
I didn't know what to do. I was in the middle of a field, in front of the smiling man and was without weapon to defend myself with.
"I could..." I suddenly heard. "I could help you, if you'd let me! Let me overtake you, completely! Your mind's resistance is your doing, Morticia! Let me in!"
It was the fact. There was really little that I could do at this point. Lucia, the idiot...wasn't much help now was she?
I did it. I let him take over. Not a move I'm proud of, but I had no other option. After a moment, I could feel my consciousness being cast aside in favor of the Fact. My skin started to decay like before, but this time my entire body. The fact now had control, all I could do was "watch".
"Well well Smiling Man...it appears we've crossed paths, once again"
"S-So we hav-have!" He responded.
"You know Smiling Man, this could be avoided. The girl isn't a concern of yours!"
"Sh-She woul-would mak-make a pow-powerful we-weapon!"
"Against who? You realize...that we should be focusing on the Black Dog, right? Morticia is not going to help with that!"
"The do-dog is none of my co-concern. He's we-weak!"
"Perhaps...but think about it! I have chosen this girl as my host. We don't want to start a conflict here, now do we?"
"W-We cou-could al-always ma-make s-some so-sort of d-deal!"
"What kind?"
"I l-leav, but y-you wi-will as-assist me, b-become an al-ally!"
"Deal!" The fact said and used my arms to shake hands with what that...monster!
"G-Good!"
I blacked out, my consciousness anyway. The fact took that much control over me. I woke up hours later back in a hotel. Not the same one as before though.
Lucia was standing over me!
"Oh, thank goodness. You are alive!"
I took the liberty of slapping her.
"Lucia...next time, THINK!" I screamed.
"You know...I was just trying to help. You could've also thought of it yourself. You have had like a century of fear-related experience. I'm new at this, alright! I didn't know!" She yelled and teared up a bit.
"You're right..." I said.
She looked surprise. Alright, I may be a bit...odd and I guess difficult to work with. But she looked like it was such a big deal. I...I'm human after all, at least now. I can make mistakes.
She smiled at me, like almost always. It's beginning to get on my nerves!
The Smiling Man appeared and honest to god, I think I've never been as terrified of a fear as when I saw him. He was probably like 9 meters tall. He was wearing a suit, not unsimilar to Slenderman's suit in terms of fabric, but he had multicolored dots all over it.
Did Smiley as they call them have a face? You bet your blog-reading behind he did! Long flowy red hair streamed from underneath his porkpie hat. His face was indescribable it was almost as if somebody had just cut a face into his lack of one. It looked like he was bleeding.
I couldn't move. I of course wanted to do the sensible thing & run away. But it was as if the part of my brain that controlled movement just shut down out of fear.
He appeared just outside of the house, where I was just minding my own business.
"Cec-Cecilia" He said, kind of stuttering.
With every word he said, a bit of blood spewed from his cut mouth and onto me.
"Wha-What are yo-you doin-g her-here?" He asked.
I wiped the blood of my face.
"I...I was just here with Lucia, I needed protection from a timberwolf. She said that it would be alright"
"Lucia, ha-s no say in the mat-matter"
He looked back towards where Lucia was standing & looking concerned at me.
"I-" she uttered.
"Ce-Cecilia" he said, with more and more blood dripping from his mouth on the ground or on my head. "I thi-think yo-you shou-should join me. Beco-Become a rose-rose bride"
"I'd rather die!" I said, immediatly regretting the choice of words.
"Tha-That can be arr-arranged" he said.
He started to summon rose pallets out of thin air, which he casted in my direction. I tried to dodge, but unfortunately I couldn't make it in time. The attack had too broad of a spread. I was cut. This wasn't the biggest, but the way the pallets cut deep into the flesh, it was rather effective considered he used about 500 of them in one attack. I'm not sure, since I don't look into flowers that much, but the petals looked like they were of a scarlet colored lily.
Yes, it seems to be true, fears can't influence me, sure...but they can attack me, they can intimidate me and work a fear-servant like deal with me. I think I just didn't think about that. I'm not shielded by the fears, my mind is...with the exception of the Fact.
I didn't know what to do. I was in the middle of a field, in front of the smiling man and was without weapon to defend myself with.
"I could..." I suddenly heard. "I could help you, if you'd let me! Let me overtake you, completely! Your mind's resistance is your doing, Morticia! Let me in!"
It was the fact. There was really little that I could do at this point. Lucia, the idiot...wasn't much help now was she?
I did it. I let him take over. Not a move I'm proud of, but I had no other option. After a moment, I could feel my consciousness being cast aside in favor of the Fact. My skin started to decay like before, but this time my entire body. The fact now had control, all I could do was "watch".
"Well well Smiling Man...it appears we've crossed paths, once again"
"S-So we hav-have!" He responded.
"You know Smiling Man, this could be avoided. The girl isn't a concern of yours!"
"Sh-She woul-would mak-make a pow-powerful we-weapon!"
"Against who? You realize...that we should be focusing on the Black Dog, right? Morticia is not going to help with that!"
"The do-dog is none of my co-concern. He's we-weak!"
"Perhaps...but think about it! I have chosen this girl as my host. We don't want to start a conflict here, now do we?"
"W-We cou-could al-always ma-make s-some so-sort of d-deal!"
"What kind?"
"I l-leav, but y-you wi-will as-assist me, b-become an al-ally!"
"Deal!" The fact said and used my arms to shake hands with what that...monster!
"G-Good!"
I blacked out, my consciousness anyway. The fact took that much control over me. I woke up hours later back in a hotel. Not the same one as before though.
Lucia was standing over me!
"Oh, thank goodness. You are alive!"
I took the liberty of slapping her.
"Lucia...next time, THINK!" I screamed.
"You know...I was just trying to help. You could've also thought of it yourself. You have had like a century of fear-related experience. I'm new at this, alright! I didn't know!" She yelled and teared up a bit.
"You're right..." I said.
She looked surprise. Alright, I may be a bit...odd and I guess difficult to work with. But she looked like it was such a big deal. I...I'm human after all, at least now. I can make mistakes.
She smiled at me, like almost always. It's beginning to get on my nerves!
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Wolf!
Lucia the idiot left a timber wolf unsupervised. Do I even need to explain what went wrong?
It was Davi, of course it was. I had been expecting another ambush from her a while now.
"Hello Quaphsiel! The father sends his regards"
"Father?"
"The Archangel"
"Right, what does he want? No...I can already guess, no need for you to waste your precious oxygen telling me"
"Right!"
She started to charge at me with that gun of hers, very annoying if I may say so. I picked up a chair in the room and threw it at her. It wasn't much, but it was enough to distract her and give me a few seconds to escape. I ran down the stairwell & saw Luci on the way. I didn't have time to explain anything, so I just grabbed her hand and ran.
We managed to get in front of the hotel, but Davi was right on our trail. I was about to run when Luci stopped me. She was holding my hand tightly and had her eyes closed.
"What is wrong with you, we have to leave!" I screamed at her.
A black door-like portal opened up behind us, sucking us in. Once on the other side we were in a big flower field, which also had a wooden cabin nearby. Luci dragged me torwards it.
I've never really had to run this fast for like a century, it was exhausting. In the cabin I started panting from shear exhaustion as I threw myself into the bed in there.
"You...You..you could do that?"
"I'm a Smiling Man servant, what kind of servant doesn't have access to their fear's domain?"
"Right...forgot"
"We'll be safe here. The Smiling Man is still not going to be happy that I brought you here, but perhaps I could convince him."
"Wait, he's here?"
"Hmm...I don't feel his presence, so I'm guessing not. I'll explain once he gets here" She said as she stood in front of the bed I was so happily resting my eyes in.
"Ah..."
"Now"
"What?"
"Now I'd say you are as protected as you possibly could be. Provided I talk to the Smiling Man, why can't you just live here? There is nothing out there for you!"
"I guess...for the time being"
Despite my closed eyes, it was as if I could feel her smile.
I drifted into a dreamless sleep. A sleep which I enjoyed to the fullest, for nothing was wrong, nothing was right, nothing was. It was trully blissful.
When I woke up the next morning, she had gone somewhere. I made myself some breakfast, took a shower and changed my clothes.
She was kind of right, I could just live here!
It was Davi, of course it was. I had been expecting another ambush from her a while now.
"Hello Quaphsiel! The father sends his regards"
"Father?"
"The Archangel"
"Right, what does he want? No...I can already guess, no need for you to waste your precious oxygen telling me"
"Right!"
She started to charge at me with that gun of hers, very annoying if I may say so. I picked up a chair in the room and threw it at her. It wasn't much, but it was enough to distract her and give me a few seconds to escape. I ran down the stairwell & saw Luci on the way. I didn't have time to explain anything, so I just grabbed her hand and ran.
We managed to get in front of the hotel, but Davi was right on our trail. I was about to run when Luci stopped me. She was holding my hand tightly and had her eyes closed.
"What is wrong with you, we have to leave!" I screamed at her.
A black door-like portal opened up behind us, sucking us in. Once on the other side we were in a big flower field, which also had a wooden cabin nearby. Luci dragged me torwards it.
I've never really had to run this fast for like a century, it was exhausting. In the cabin I started panting from shear exhaustion as I threw myself into the bed in there.
"You...You..you could do that?"
"I'm a Smiling Man servant, what kind of servant doesn't have access to their fear's domain?"
"Right...forgot"
"We'll be safe here. The Smiling Man is still not going to be happy that I brought you here, but perhaps I could convince him."
"Wait, he's here?"
"Hmm...I don't feel his presence, so I'm guessing not. I'll explain once he gets here" She said as she stood in front of the bed I was so happily resting my eyes in.
"Ah..."
"Now"
"What?"
"Now I'd say you are as protected as you possibly could be. Provided I talk to the Smiling Man, why can't you just live here? There is nothing out there for you!"
"I guess...for the time being"
Despite my closed eyes, it was as if I could feel her smile.
I drifted into a dreamless sleep. A sleep which I enjoyed to the fullest, for nothing was wrong, nothing was right, nothing was. It was trully blissful.
When I woke up the next morning, she had gone somewhere. I made myself some breakfast, took a shower and changed my clothes.
She was kind of right, I could just live here!
Friday, February 22, 2013
Well, this was an interesting day...odd one, but interesting...
I think Cecilia has calmed down. She stayed in her room for the most part. I went ahead and checked on her a few hours ago, she seemed fine.
"Why do you even follow me around if you dislike me so much?" She asked once I entered her room, curled up on her bed.
"I don't dislike you Cecilia" I said as I sat down on the bed, next to her "You seem like a fun person, I just think that a century of being raised by the fears has warped your view of them negatively.That is the reason I contacted you in the first place! After finding your blog, I became worried and wanted to help"
"The Smiling Man lets you do that?"
"The Smiling Man gives me a lot of freedom to roam around, until I'm needed. Like the other day when I was sightseeing"
After a bit of a silence, I tried to break the ice a bit.
"What do you think we should do? Just stay here?"
"Well Luci, it's about as safe as we can get. I mean...EAT said that I was this..."
"Opposer?"
"Yeah, so...is there really anything I have to worry about?"
"I don't know, but perhaps the fears might want to gain advantage of you. I mean, the dying man is already in you? Have you asked him what he wants?"
"I have...He basically just took over me so that the other fears would back off. I'm as protected from the fears as I can get at this point. I'm like a fear repellant"
"Yeah. I'm just saying, it wouldn't hurt to think about what you want to do. Do you have a goal at this point?"
"Getting back to mom & dad"
"Alright, aside from that...what do you want to do?"
I assumed she would say something along the line of "nothing" or "nope, just that", but her answer surprised me a little.
"I want to meet my sister. You said she was coming, didn't you?"
"Yeah...ehm Whisper...something"
"That's not her real name"
"What is it then?" I asked, being honestly quite curious about that.
"Upsilon, Upsilon Zeak"
"That is an unusal name, doesn't really fit with your name or anything"
"Yeah...dad gave her a greek sounding name in order to be percieved as a big shot in the business world. Whisper was of course his favorite."
"Oh?"
"I wasn't even his daughter, so its not like I cared all that much"
"Hmm?"
"Upsilon is my half-sister, mother's side"
"You don't talk about your family much"
"Aside from Upsilon, they are all dead, so why bother"
"Fair enough...I guess"
"I don't think you and I talk that much anyway"
I shrugged, stood up, waved to her and walked out of the room. She had a point, we barely talk.
When I got back to my room, someone was waiting for me there. She had long flowy brown hair, wearing a sweatshirt and wielding a sword.
"Hello...Lucia"
I was startled. Didn't exactly know what to do at this point, but I figured remaining calm wouldn't hurt.
"Oh, I guess you don't know who I am. My name's Davi, father sends his regards"
"Father?"
"You know, Father, Uriel, The Fallen...The Archangel!"
"Right...What do you want here?"
"I came here to ask you to get rid of the dying man piece. You see, Father wants
your friend there in his arsenal, but can't do so with her being an opposer to the fears' powers and the dying man piece keeping her from being occupied"
"Heh...alright, what if I was interested in betraying a friend for you & the Archangel. What would I gain out of it?"
"Not being killed by me"
"Then go ahead...Timberwolf...kill me!"
She started to charge at me, swinging her sword in a random manner in my directiong. Timberwolfs can't be good servants. A lot of them have no powers, they are just cultists, that is all. There is nothing else about them.
Since she didn't give me much of a choice, I started to attack as well. I summoned a wind tunnel of rose pallets above my now exposed hands. I started to attack her with the rose pallets. I know that sounds a bit...lame, but they actually do deep cuts.
She didn't put up much of a fight, after a while of having multiple cuts, she ended up surrendering.
Davi passed out from the pain.
I don't even get Timberwolfs, why would they do this without asking for any powers to be able to do their jobs properly.
Like the nice person I am, I treated her various wounds. Not like it took me long, most of them were small. It is just how many cuts that makes it unbearable.
Rose brides, such as I tend to be able to do all sorts of things. But violence, unless necessary is not really my style.
I put Davi on the couch, but not until I had handcuffed her with some rope I got from the receptionist. I may be nice, but I'm not an idiot.
Guess Cecilia was wrong about being 100% protected.
"Why do you even follow me around if you dislike me so much?" She asked once I entered her room, curled up on her bed.
"I don't dislike you Cecilia" I said as I sat down on the bed, next to her "You seem like a fun person, I just think that a century of being raised by the fears has warped your view of them negatively.That is the reason I contacted you in the first place! After finding your blog, I became worried and wanted to help"
"The Smiling Man lets you do that?"
"The Smiling Man gives me a lot of freedom to roam around, until I'm needed. Like the other day when I was sightseeing"
After a bit of a silence, I tried to break the ice a bit.
"What do you think we should do? Just stay here?"
"Well Luci, it's about as safe as we can get. I mean...EAT said that I was this..."
"Opposer?"
"Yeah, so...is there really anything I have to worry about?"
"I don't know, but perhaps the fears might want to gain advantage of you. I mean, the dying man is already in you? Have you asked him what he wants?"
"I have...He basically just took over me so that the other fears would back off. I'm as protected from the fears as I can get at this point. I'm like a fear repellant"
"Yeah. I'm just saying, it wouldn't hurt to think about what you want to do. Do you have a goal at this point?"
"Getting back to mom & dad"
"Alright, aside from that...what do you want to do?"
I assumed she would say something along the line of "nothing" or "nope, just that", but her answer surprised me a little.
"I want to meet my sister. You said she was coming, didn't you?"
"Yeah...ehm Whisper...something"
"That's not her real name"
"What is it then?" I asked, being honestly quite curious about that.
"Upsilon, Upsilon Zeak"
"That is an unusal name, doesn't really fit with your name or anything"
"Yeah...dad gave her a greek sounding name in order to be percieved as a big shot in the business world. Whisper was of course his favorite."
"Oh?"
"I wasn't even his daughter, so its not like I cared all that much"
"Hmm?"
"Upsilon is my half-sister, mother's side"
"You don't talk about your family much"
"Aside from Upsilon, they are all dead, so why bother"
"Fair enough...I guess"
"I don't think you and I talk that much anyway"
I shrugged, stood up, waved to her and walked out of the room. She had a point, we barely talk.
When I got back to my room, someone was waiting for me there. She had long flowy brown hair, wearing a sweatshirt and wielding a sword.
"Hello...Lucia"
I was startled. Didn't exactly know what to do at this point, but I figured remaining calm wouldn't hurt.
"Oh, I guess you don't know who I am. My name's Davi, father sends his regards"
"Father?"
"You know, Father, Uriel, The Fallen...The Archangel!"
"Right...What do you want here?"
"I came here to ask you to get rid of the dying man piece. You see, Father wants
your friend there in his arsenal, but can't do so with her being an opposer to the fears' powers and the dying man piece keeping her from being occupied"
"Heh...alright, what if I was interested in betraying a friend for you & the Archangel. What would I gain out of it?"
"Not being killed by me"
"Then go ahead...Timberwolf...kill me!"
She started to charge at me, swinging her sword in a random manner in my directiong. Timberwolfs can't be good servants. A lot of them have no powers, they are just cultists, that is all. There is nothing else about them.
Since she didn't give me much of a choice, I started to attack as well. I summoned a wind tunnel of rose pallets above my now exposed hands. I started to attack her with the rose pallets. I know that sounds a bit...lame, but they actually do deep cuts.
She didn't put up much of a fight, after a while of having multiple cuts, she ended up surrendering.
Davi passed out from the pain.
I don't even get Timberwolfs, why would they do this without asking for any powers to be able to do their jobs properly.
Like the nice person I am, I treated her various wounds. Not like it took me long, most of them were small. It is just how many cuts that makes it unbearable.
Rose brides, such as I tend to be able to do all sorts of things. But violence, unless necessary is not really my style.
I put Davi on the couch, but not until I had handcuffed her with some rope I got from the receptionist. I may be nice, but I'm not an idiot.
Guess Cecilia was wrong about being 100% protected.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Talk!
I finally calmed down. I still find it disrespectful what that girl did to me, but I kind of managed to cool of through a long walk. I came back to her watching TV. She seemed to have calmed down as well.
"Listen Cecilia, I...I didn't want to hit you like that. I guess I just couldn't control myself. I...I'm sorry" she said as I entered.
"I probably had it coming sooner or later. I guess someone slapping me is not the worst thing someone has done to me to make a point come across. Take the Fact for example"
She smiled at me and nodded before going back to watching her show.
I myself went for a walk again. I've begun to enjoy walks, its more calming than anything else.
"So, you are not mad at her?" The Fact asked.
"A bit, but she may have had a point. I just, can't believe that. I can't believe or even think about that spending a century with Slenderman & Mother meant nothing to them. It must have."
"I wouldn't be so sure, but I get your point"
"As far as I'm concerned, they are the only beings I care about anymore"
"What about Alicia or Lucia? Or Knight?"
"To hell with them, I don't care about them. What could they provide me? meaningless sex and a few hours a day of talking? That's not what I need right now, what I need is compassion...my parents"
"Slenderman & the Mother of Snakes?"
I nodded.
I waited a bit before continuing our discussion.
"So...fact, since you won't leave my body. Can you at least tell me what your plan is?"
"My plan? What makes you think I have a plan"
"The overtaking of my body?"
"Oh you misunderstand. What brought me to you in the first place was how afraid you were of knowing your life could end. It was only once I had invaded your dreams that I realized that you were an opposer. I wanted to reserve you, so that no one else claims you"
"So, you're not going to do anything?"
"Not unless you give me a reason to"
"Alright, since you are so wise...what should I do now?
"I'd recommend that you stay at the hotel, until it is no longer safe. Running will cause exhaustion and there is no real point to it. You are a force field, the fears can't really do much"
He had a point. I did the only sensible thing...I walked back and started reading some fearblogs. At least I can entertain myself, until I figure out the best plan to get back to mom & dad.
"Listen Cecilia, I...I didn't want to hit you like that. I guess I just couldn't control myself. I...I'm sorry" she said as I entered.
"I probably had it coming sooner or later. I guess someone slapping me is not the worst thing someone has done to me to make a point come across. Take the Fact for example"
She smiled at me and nodded before going back to watching her show.
I myself went for a walk again. I've begun to enjoy walks, its more calming than anything else.
"So, you are not mad at her?" The Fact asked.
"A bit, but she may have had a point. I just, can't believe that. I can't believe or even think about that spending a century with Slenderman & Mother meant nothing to them. It must have."
"I wouldn't be so sure, but I get your point"
"As far as I'm concerned, they are the only beings I care about anymore"
"What about Alicia or Lucia? Or Knight?"
"To hell with them, I don't care about them. What could they provide me? meaningless sex and a few hours a day of talking? That's not what I need right now, what I need is compassion...my parents"
"Slenderman & the Mother of Snakes?"
I nodded.
I waited a bit before continuing our discussion.
"So...fact, since you won't leave my body. Can you at least tell me what your plan is?"
"My plan? What makes you think I have a plan"
"The overtaking of my body?"
"Oh you misunderstand. What brought me to you in the first place was how afraid you were of knowing your life could end. It was only once I had invaded your dreams that I realized that you were an opposer. I wanted to reserve you, so that no one else claims you"
"So, you're not going to do anything?"
"Not unless you give me a reason to"
"Alright, since you are so wise...what should I do now?
"I'd recommend that you stay at the hotel, until it is no longer safe. Running will cause exhaustion and there is no real point to it. You are a force field, the fears can't really do much"
He had a point. I did the only sensible thing...I walked back and started reading some fearblogs. At least I can entertain myself, until I figure out the best plan to get back to mom & dad.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Encounter!
Lucia woke up yesterday morning.
She is still too weak to update, so I guess it's once again my turn. I didn't notice it last night, but she had a bunch of flesh wounds on her ranging from her arms and stomach.
Once again I felt kind of obligated to help her, since she helped me when I was ill. So I treated her wounds as best I could with the first aid kit I found here at the hotel.
It took a while, mostly because it was hard wrapping the bandages around her stomach, but eventually it was done. She slept through it, which kind of made it easier. Nothing worse than a fiddgeding person you are trying to treat the wounds of.
As soon as she woke up I got her up to date on the happenings with EAT & the Fact and all that. She seemed concerned, but it died down once we started another topic.
"What was that?" I asked her.
"Huh?" she asked.
"You came in here, apparently wounded last night and cried, saying that something was all your fault"
"Yeah...ehm" she said.
"I went down to Time Square to do some sightseeing and shopping an the like" she said "But I was approached by a girl wearing one of those old-timey newsboy hat followed by a black dog"
She took a bit of a breath before continuing.
"All the sudden everything went grey and time stopped. The girl I saw took out two knifes and started attacking me until I was laying on the ground, too weak to really move"
"Anyway, she asked me where you were & then said that she was going to be paying you a visit"
After hearing this I calmly went down and got her some breakfast, along with some for myself.
"Sounds like you'll be getting some visitors" The Fact said as I was walking down the stairs "Any idea who they might be?"
"I know exactly who it is"
"Who?"
"My sister and the Black Dog"
"You have a sister?"
"I have more siblings than that, but I guess she is the only one that is still alive"
"I'm guessing you guys don't get along"
"You know how it is. I mostly hate her bigoted attitude towards fears & her hypocrisy. She hates fear servants, but is the servant of the Black Dog."
"The black dog has servants?"
"She's a special case, if I recall"
"I see"
I returned to Lucia who was sitting in bed, drawing something in a sketchbook she had.
"Here..." I said and put the tray on her lap.
"Thank you" she said and smiled.
"Cecilia..." she said all the sudden after a while of eating her french toast.
"What?"
"Did you like being a servant?"
"Ehm...I guess so, for me it was mostly just doing minor work and taking care of the crossroads"
"I see...some days I don't really know..."
In all the commotion I had forgotten that Lucia was a fear servants. It's not like it was obvious since she showed really no sign of being under fear control.
"One thing I've wondered Luci...are you a willing or an unwilling servant?"
"Depends what you mean?"
"I mean is the fear you work for manipulating you to do its bidding"
"Oh, I guess I'm a willing servant then, but only by that definition. Sometimes I think the Smiling Man doesn't really care. I kind of know he doesn't. I'm a pawn to him"
I was getting annoyed at all the chess motifs, but her working for the Smiling Man came as a bit of a surprise to me. I had theorized that she worked for the Blind Man or something.
"The fears, at least Slenderman & Mother are appreciative. They care for me and -"
She slapped me.
"You ignorant bitch!" she yelled at me.
"Are you really that dumb? I know you aren't stupid when it comes to the fears. Do you honestly think that thousands of people making blogs of their lives which almost always end in death or worse for fun? The fears...don't care. We are playthings to them, has that not entered your brain yet? Let's say you are right, let's say Slenderman and the Mother of Snakes do care about you...Why haven't they done a thing to get you back? Why didn't they swoop in and grant you immortality when you lost it? Why didn't they prevent the dying man from taking over you? That's because they don't care about you at all, you're a pawn Cecilia...like the rest of us" she yelled while occasionally becoming tearful.
I looked at her angrily for a moment, then just walked away. I lay down on the couch and went to sleep. I just didn't want to deal with her anymore, she's like all others.
I thought...
She is still too weak to update, so I guess it's once again my turn. I didn't notice it last night, but she had a bunch of flesh wounds on her ranging from her arms and stomach.
Once again I felt kind of obligated to help her, since she helped me when I was ill. So I treated her wounds as best I could with the first aid kit I found here at the hotel.
It took a while, mostly because it was hard wrapping the bandages around her stomach, but eventually it was done. She slept through it, which kind of made it easier. Nothing worse than a fiddgeding person you are trying to treat the wounds of.
As soon as she woke up I got her up to date on the happenings with EAT & the Fact and all that. She seemed concerned, but it died down once we started another topic.
"What was that?" I asked her.
"Huh?" she asked.
"You came in here, apparently wounded last night and cried, saying that something was all your fault"
"Yeah...ehm" she said.
"I went down to Time Square to do some sightseeing and shopping an the like" she said "But I was approached by a girl wearing one of those old-timey newsboy hat followed by a black dog"
She took a bit of a breath before continuing.
"All the sudden everything went grey and time stopped. The girl I saw took out two knifes and started attacking me until I was laying on the ground, too weak to really move"
"Anyway, she asked me where you were & then said that she was going to be paying you a visit"
After hearing this I calmly went down and got her some breakfast, along with some for myself.
"Sounds like you'll be getting some visitors" The Fact said as I was walking down the stairs "Any idea who they might be?"
"I know exactly who it is"
"Who?"
"My sister and the Black Dog"
"You have a sister?"
"I have more siblings than that, but I guess she is the only one that is still alive"
"I'm guessing you guys don't get along"
"You know how it is. I mostly hate her bigoted attitude towards fears & her hypocrisy. She hates fear servants, but is the servant of the Black Dog."
"The black dog has servants?"
"She's a special case, if I recall"
"I see"
I returned to Lucia who was sitting in bed, drawing something in a sketchbook she had.
"Here..." I said and put the tray on her lap.
"Thank you" she said and smiled.
"Cecilia..." she said all the sudden after a while of eating her french toast.
"What?"
"Did you like being a servant?"
"Ehm...I guess so, for me it was mostly just doing minor work and taking care of the crossroads"
"I see...some days I don't really know..."
In all the commotion I had forgotten that Lucia was a fear servants. It's not like it was obvious since she showed really no sign of being under fear control.
"One thing I've wondered Luci...are you a willing or an unwilling servant?"
"Depends what you mean?"
"I mean is the fear you work for manipulating you to do its bidding"
"Oh, I guess I'm a willing servant then, but only by that definition. Sometimes I think the Smiling Man doesn't really care. I kind of know he doesn't. I'm a pawn to him"
I was getting annoyed at all the chess motifs, but her working for the Smiling Man came as a bit of a surprise to me. I had theorized that she worked for the Blind Man or something.
"The fears, at least Slenderman & Mother are appreciative. They care for me and -"
She slapped me.
"You ignorant bitch!" she yelled at me.
"Are you really that dumb? I know you aren't stupid when it comes to the fears. Do you honestly think that thousands of people making blogs of their lives which almost always end in death or worse for fun? The fears...don't care. We are playthings to them, has that not entered your brain yet? Let's say you are right, let's say Slenderman and the Mother of Snakes do care about you...Why haven't they done a thing to get you back? Why didn't they swoop in and grant you immortality when you lost it? Why didn't they prevent the dying man from taking over you? That's because they don't care about you at all, you're a pawn Cecilia...like the rest of us" she yelled while occasionally becoming tearful.
I looked at her angrily for a moment, then just walked away. I lay down on the couch and went to sleep. I just didn't want to deal with her anymore, she's like all others.
I thought...
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Night!
I woke up to a knock on my hotel room door around 2 AM. I got nervous, as I wasn't expecting someone, so I prepared for the worst to be behind it. It was Lucia, tears were falling down her pale-white face, she seemed cold & frightened. She leaned against me as soon as I opened the door, leaning her head on my shoulder. Lucia wasn't the most tolerable, but so far has been the only "human" who has been nice to me on this journey, at least from the people I've physically met.
I reached passed her and closed the door.
"I'm sorry..." Lucia said.
"What's wrong?"
"I-...I just, sorry" she said while trying to hold back the flow of tears "its all my fault"
She seemed so tired and weakened that she was almost passing out from exhaustion, it was noticeable. I put her down on my bed where she fell asleep instantly.
I went out since I was up. I'm never am able to go back to sleep after being woken up with this, at least not until a couple of hours later.
"Hello, Cecilia" I heard from behind me as I was walking down the road.
I turned around swiftly & there he was, Jack...or Jack of All Trades as he likes to be called.
He was leaning against a building, drinking a glass of liquor.
"Oh, Jack...you startled me"
"How's it going Cecilia?" He asked.
"I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it seems that we have a bit of a predicament"
"How so?"
"Your plan of using Ira Sage as bait for Slenderman is not going to work."
"What?"
"He no longer exists, not in this universe anyway."
"Was that what Lucia was talking about?" I mumbled.
"What?"
"Nothing"
"No, it just seems to me that with that happening due to a deal of mine with someone who shall remain anonymous & the fears going after you now because of the whole opposer thing, you have some issues"
"I guess, but its nothing that I can't handle"
"Do you even know what your goal is at this point?"
"Well of course, like it has been from the start, returning to Slenderman & Mother"
"Think about it, you have no goal. Not one that makes any sense anyways" He said and took another sip of his drink
"What are you talking about?"
"Slenderman & Mother may have cared for you in the past, but do you really think they'll see you now as anything else but a tool?"
I had the unbelievable urge to slap him, but by some miracle I held it together.
"Why are you saying that, why are you even here?" I asked.
"Why am I anywhere? To make a deal of course"
"Do you think I'm an idiot? Do you think I don't know where a deal with you does to a person?"
"I'm just saying. You could make a wish. For the opposer thing to go away"
"Why do you even give me an opportunity? I already used up my deal with you"
"Well, I kind of like you. You remind me of me a bit"
I slapped him this time, I found that to be just the lowest insult someone like him could utter.
"I probably deserved that" he said and smiled.
"I'm not taking the damn deal"
He chuckled and looked at me for a while.
"Alright...but you know where to find me if you change your mind"
He then vanished, sort of merging into a portal-like thing in the wall of the building he was leaning on.
I went back to the hotel. Lucia was still sleeping on my bed, so I simply slept on the couch provided there. I didn't want to wake her up.
I reached passed her and closed the door.
"I'm sorry..." Lucia said.
"What's wrong?"
"I-...I just, sorry" she said while trying to hold back the flow of tears "its all my fault"
She seemed so tired and weakened that she was almost passing out from exhaustion, it was noticeable. I put her down on my bed where she fell asleep instantly.
I went out since I was up. I'm never am able to go back to sleep after being woken up with this, at least not until a couple of hours later.
"Hello, Cecilia" I heard from behind me as I was walking down the road.
I turned around swiftly & there he was, Jack...or Jack of All Trades as he likes to be called.
He was leaning against a building, drinking a glass of liquor.
"Oh, Jack...you startled me"
"How's it going Cecilia?" He asked.
"I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it seems that we have a bit of a predicament"
"How so?"
"Your plan of using Ira Sage as bait for Slenderman is not going to work."
"What?"
"He no longer exists, not in this universe anyway."
"Was that what Lucia was talking about?" I mumbled.
"What?"
"Nothing"
"No, it just seems to me that with that happening due to a deal of mine with someone who shall remain anonymous & the fears going after you now because of the whole opposer thing, you have some issues"
"I guess, but its nothing that I can't handle"
"Do you even know what your goal is at this point?"
"Well of course, like it has been from the start, returning to Slenderman & Mother"
"Think about it, you have no goal. Not one that makes any sense anyways" He said and took another sip of his drink
"What are you talking about?"
"Slenderman & Mother may have cared for you in the past, but do you really think they'll see you now as anything else but a tool?"
I had the unbelievable urge to slap him, but by some miracle I held it together.
"Why are you saying that, why are you even here?" I asked.
"Why am I anywhere? To make a deal of course"
"Do you think I'm an idiot? Do you think I don't know where a deal with you does to a person?"
"I'm just saying. You could make a wish. For the opposer thing to go away"
"Why do you even give me an opportunity? I already used up my deal with you"
"Well, I kind of like you. You remind me of me a bit"
I slapped him this time, I found that to be just the lowest insult someone like him could utter.
"I probably deserved that" he said and smiled.
"I'm not taking the damn deal"
He chuckled and looked at me for a while.
"Alright...but you know where to find me if you change your mind"
He then vanished, sort of merging into a portal-like thing in the wall of the building he was leaning on.
I went back to the hotel. Lucia was still sleeping on my bed, so I simply slept on the couch provided there. I didn't want to wake her up.
Friday, February 15, 2013
Dying!
So, here is what happened. I was in my room, just reading some fearblogs. Because, I wanted to make another one of those opinion posts like old-times, but I was interrupted by someone knocking on the door. Like an idiot I answered it thinking it was going to be someone from the hotel or Lucia or something.
It wasn't. It was some girl, didn't really recognize her.
She had blonde hair and almost blue skin with water running down her delicate feet. I had expected a camper to have appeared much sooner. EAT and I have never gotten along, so I'm surprised she hasn't killed me yet or made me into a camper.
So EAT was right there in front of me & the first thing to come out of her mouth: "Eris..."
Always when EAT talks, I feel like there is an echo, it is irritating.
I jumped back in position, as if I was preparing to fight her, forgetting once again that I'm human.
"I'm not here to fight you Eris, unless you give me a reason to."
"What are you here for?"
"I want you, to join me"
"Become a camper?"
"No, I can't do that. It's impossible right now, however it would be pretty easy with your current condition and obsession with the Slenderman under regular circumstances."
I eased up a bit & invited her in, closing the door in order to have some privacy.
"What makes this irregular?"
"You, Eris...are a tool. Some would say that you are just a pawn, but I think you are a more valuable piece in the game than that. If we stay by the chess motif, I would say you'd be a Knight"
"A Knight?"
"Yes, valuable, but hard to base your strategy on"
"So..."
"You interest me Eris, you are different than the rest. You remind me of your girlfriend..."
"Alicia...so...I'm a resonator?"
"Oh no, quite the opposite my dear. An opposer..." she said, laughing. "You seem to have barrier around you which stops the fears influence over you. I mean, haven't you ever wondered why you were the only Lilim without snake features? That's because the Mother of Snakes did nothing to you, she gave you immortality but that was the extent of it, you were essentially a willing servant"
This was heavy...but...it kind of added up. I never did have snake features, did I? But still didn't explain what she wanted with me.
"So what do you want with me?"
"I want to study you, I want to study how strong your barrier is and what effect it would have on fears. Because it could land a fear advantage in the game to have you on their side"
"What makes you think I'll join you?"
It was then that she pulled out a knife from her pocket and pointed it at me.
"Because, while you may not be harmed with fear influence, I can still kill you. I doubt you'll fight to any noticeable extent with that shoulder wound" She said and pointed the knife at my shoulder.
She placed the knife against my throat.
EAT grew a liquid tentacle thing out of her back and locked the door with it. As amazing as that was, I grew to worry.
"Well...?" EAT asked.
It was then that something inside me, something familiar started to erupt. I could feel half of my body begin to melt. I screamed, it was aching. The left side of my body was decaying as I began to drop to my knees from the pain.
Something was taking over me, I knew that much. This something started to use my mouth, now deformed started to move on its own. Whatever this is spoke in a weird matter, presumably because of only having half my body to work with.
"EAT...leave her be" that something said.
"A dying man shard? But how...?"
"That is non of your business EAT. Point is that I found a loophole, although as you can clearly see, it isn't perfect." The dying man shard said, its voice sounding like someone was choking me.
EAT grew a liquid tentacle thing out of her back and locked the door with it. As amazing as that was, I grew to worry.
"Well...?" EAT asked.
It was then that something inside me, something familiar started to erupt. I could feel half of my body begin to melt. I screamed, it was aching. The left side of my body was decaying as I began to drop to my knees from the pain.
Something was taking over me, I knew that much. This something started to use my mouth, now deformed started to move on its own. Whatever this is spoke in a weird matter, presumably because of only having half my body to work with.
"EAT...leave her be" that something said.
"A dying man shard? But how...?"
"That is non of your business EAT. Point is that I found a loophole, although as you can clearly see, it isn't perfect." The dying man shard said, its voice sounding like someone was choking me.
"A loophole? That is interesting...something I could make use of as well. Why don't we share her?"
I had no say in this, I couldn't talk...all I could do was stay there listening to these two fears argue who could keep me, like I was an object or something.
"No EAT!"
They began to fight. The Dying man using my body to the best of its capabilities. It spewed out smoke in EAT's face, which EAT countered with some of its liquid thing. This went on for quite a while until EAT retreated. The fight was laughable though due to how silly it must've looked with the dying man sort of pushing my lefts side back and forth and tripping a lot.
"I'll be back for you Eris, I can't waste my time on this silly shard"
The dying man shard stopped the semi-control of me and my left half went back to normal.
"It'll surely be a pleasure working with you Morticia, you may call me The Fact"
The voice then stopped, as if it retreated to the back of my mind. I just went to bed and curled up there.
This wasn't what I wanted, none of this is. All I wanted was Slenderman & Mother back.
Where are they anyway, they could've appeared to me or helped me or something? Why didn't they?
Don't they care?
I had no say in this, I couldn't talk...all I could do was stay there listening to these two fears argue who could keep me, like I was an object or something.
"No EAT!"
They began to fight. The Dying man using my body to the best of its capabilities. It spewed out smoke in EAT's face, which EAT countered with some of its liquid thing. This went on for quite a while until EAT retreated. The fight was laughable though due to how silly it must've looked with the dying man sort of pushing my lefts side back and forth and tripping a lot.
"I'll be back for you Eris, I can't waste my time on this silly shard"
The dying man shard stopped the semi-control of me and my left half went back to normal.
"It'll surely be a pleasure working with you Morticia, you may call me The Fact"
The voice then stopped, as if it retreated to the back of my mind. I just went to bed and curled up there.
This wasn't what I wanted, none of this is. All I wanted was Slenderman & Mother back.
Where are they anyway, they could've appeared to me or helped me or something? Why didn't they?
Don't they care?
Monday, February 11, 2013
Healing!
I've been getting better. Although sometimes I still tend to black out, but that doesn't last for long.
While I was out it seems Lucia took care of me, how disgustingly adorable of her. Lucia is now having a jolly ol' time exploring the city...how fun.
I remember some of my dreams, mostly it was similar to that vision I had the other day where I was just shown my grave. Then sometimes I saw my own corpse, rotting in the street as people just walked on by, not even noticing it.
Being honest, that wasn't pleasant at all, although that kind of goes without saying.
The voice from my vision seems to show up. This is probably some fear, evident by the fact that almost NONE of the fears know my name apparently.
God, I was hoping the fears had just figured that I wasn't that big of a target and would just leave me alone.
Alright, I'm cancelling the trip to Belgium entirely now, at least until I get rid of whatever is possessing me.
While I was out it seems Lucia took care of me, how disgustingly adorable of her. Lucia is now having a jolly ol' time exploring the city...how fun.
I remember some of my dreams, mostly it was similar to that vision I had the other day where I was just shown my grave. Then sometimes I saw my own corpse, rotting in the street as people just walked on by, not even noticing it.
Being honest, that wasn't pleasant at all, although that kind of goes without saying.
The voice from my vision seems to show up. This is probably some fear, evident by the fact that almost NONE of the fears know my name apparently.
God, I was hoping the fears had just figured that I wasn't that big of a target and would just leave me alone.
Alright, I'm cancelling the trip to Belgium entirely now, at least until I get rid of whatever is possessing me.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Bad News x.x
Cecilia is not feeling well D:
We are probably going to postpone our trip to Belgium until she gets better <-<
I've been trying to help her, I even bought some soup ^-^
That didn't really work though x.x
She is ill, her fever is very high & she keeps talking in her sleep u.u
Mostly its just rambles about happenings in her dream.
"Shattering minds...all of them" is like the most frequent phrase she says over and over again in her sleep.
I hope she'll get better .w. I'm starting to worry!
We are probably going to postpone our trip to Belgium until she gets better <-<
I've been trying to help her, I even bought some soup ^-^
That didn't really work though x.x
She is ill, her fever is very high & she keeps talking in her sleep u.u
Mostly its just rambles about happenings in her dream.
"Shattering minds...all of them" is like the most frequent phrase she says over and over again in her sleep.
I hope she'll get better .w. I'm starting to worry!
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Tombstone!
I'd like to start this post by apologizing to my dear Alicia for my kiss with Knight. I seem to have a different ideal of what cheating is. Perhaps to you Alicia me kissing Knight would be seen as a breach of our relationship, but I, as passionate as that kiss might have been, don't really see it as that. To me, a kiss is a form of expression, in the case of Knight an expression of thanks & nothing more.
Now that I have that out of the way, I can write about the only interesting thing that has happened to me this week.
Lucia & I decided that perhaps it would be foolish to go quickly, whoever took away my powers probably expects me to go to Belgium.
Lucia thought it was a trap, although she expressed it in her usual jumpy & quirky manner.
"Cecilia, we could stay in town for just a few more days, maybe a few weeks even. That way it will lead to less trouble & we can have fun exploring New York"
I've never been really excited for the wonders of New York City. I mean it's just another city, so its not like there are amusment parks or anything.
But she had a good point, I must admit that.
The only real interesting event was last night. I woke up because of some noise, that clearly didn't wake up Lucia as she was sleeping like the little weird angel that she is. Anyway all the sudden I felt a flash, sort of a blur appeared and I was all the sudden in a grey monochrome place.
It was dark. Right before me was a cemetery. Sort of a cliché one too with bats & cats prowling around.
As I stand in this cemetary I keep hearing something in the back of my head, almost like its in my subconscious, almost like a whisper.
"Mort-icia" that very something said.
Apparently my subconscious is not familiar that I already have a name.
"This Morticia..."
I looked around the cemetery, all the tombstones were empty. Except for one...mine, my name, birth & death date carved in real nicely.
After a while of me staring onto my grave, I was back in the hotel room.
I didn't like this, not one bit. If anything this reminded me why I started this mission at all. Sure, a lot of people would've just been happy with being off the fears radar. I however, need to become immortal again.
It's not just that I got used to the lifestyle, its the knowledge of not dying. Being able to watch civilization grow, being an almost god-like being in humans eyes.
I don't want to lose that.
Now that I have that out of the way, I can write about the only interesting thing that has happened to me this week.
Lucia & I decided that perhaps it would be foolish to go quickly, whoever took away my powers probably expects me to go to Belgium.
Lucia thought it was a trap, although she expressed it in her usual jumpy & quirky manner.
"Cecilia, we could stay in town for just a few more days, maybe a few weeks even. That way it will lead to less trouble & we can have fun exploring New York"
I've never been really excited for the wonders of New York City. I mean it's just another city, so its not like there are amusment parks or anything.
But she had a good point, I must admit that.
The only real interesting event was last night. I woke up because of some noise, that clearly didn't wake up Lucia as she was sleeping like the little weird angel that she is. Anyway all the sudden I felt a flash, sort of a blur appeared and I was all the sudden in a grey monochrome place.
It was dark. Right before me was a cemetery. Sort of a cliché one too with bats & cats prowling around.
As I stand in this cemetary I keep hearing something in the back of my head, almost like its in my subconscious, almost like a whisper.
"Mort-icia" that very something said.
Apparently my subconscious is not familiar that I already have a name.
"This Morticia..."
I looked around the cemetery, all the tombstones were empty. Except for one...mine, my name, birth & death date carved in real nicely.
After a while of me staring onto my grave, I was back in the hotel room.
I didn't like this, not one bit. If anything this reminded me why I started this mission at all. Sure, a lot of people would've just been happy with being off the fears radar. I however, need to become immortal again.
It's not just that I got used to the lifestyle, its the knowledge of not dying. Being able to watch civilization grow, being an almost god-like being in humans eyes.
I don't want to lose that.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Finale!
Alright, after getting a tip from Jack about the whereabouts of the Rake, I rounded up people and we were on our marry way.
Oh yeah, Knight had appeared again, just as I predicted.
I'm glad he's okay, don't get me wrong, but to say that I'm a horrible person for my apathy towards his disappearance is a bit harsh. I think people are forgetting that I know the fears, I know all these beings and if I don't know something personally I probably have heard stories about it from Slenderman.
I went with Lucia & Nate in a car, while Knight & Elijah drove in a separate one, not really important but I like to be detailed about these things.
Anyway, according to Jack the Rake was located in a forest right outside of New York City. Once there I was instructed by Elijah that it would be best to go alone as Rake would most likely suspect something if we all went in there together.
I walked into the forest, it was a rather closely grown forest which means there was barely any source of light. It took me some time in order to reach the middle of the forest or at least some sort of empty area.
Of course the way the trees were growing, it was still dark. But after staring into the gap, I started seeing a glim of a creature of sorts, it was the Rake.
The Rake looked at me, it was nothing like I imagined. It looked like a hairless werewolf with long razor sharp claws made out of what looked like steel. I'm not one to admit this, but I was scared for just a moment there.
"Hello Samara" it said, with a really harsh voice.
Anyway, it called me Samara, which isn't the strangest or most offensive thing somebody has called me, but I digress.
"State...thy...wish, Samara" It said & pointed at me with those steel claws of his.
It seemed to assume that I was there to wish for something, it must've suspected me. That worried me for a moment, since perhaps it knew of the tracking device as well.
"Rake...I wish to meet Slenderman"
"That...I can't...arrange" It said, breathing heavily during each pause.
"Can you help me at least?"
"Well...there is a way"
"What?"
"In the ... land... you humans...call Belgium" It said, "There is a man...who is...of interest...to Slenderman. He could...be the key"
"Who might that be?"
"His name...is Ira Sage"
After that I thanked it, I put the tracking device on it when I hugged it goodbye, the device was just a sticker, so it was easy to put on it.
When I was about to leave it called out to me.
"Samara..."
I turned around, it was pointing at me.
"Samara...you're but....a chess piece...don't...forget that"
That worried me a little, but I decided to put it on the backburner for now.
I walked out of the forest, unhurt with me having gained everything I could from this operation.
Knight & the Deicide guys were standing in front of the forest entrance, with Knight looking really relieved that I was unhurt. I wanted to just taunt the fact that nothing happened, but I thought that might have been thought of as childish, besides my actions spoke for themselves.
I nodded to the Deicide guys that basically said that the deed was done.
I went over to Knight, you know to say goodbye.
"Well...it's over" I said.
"What did it say?"
"It told me to go to Belgium, find a guy named Ira Sage. It called me Samara"
"Samara?"
"Yes..."
"That's odd...do you think tha-"
I interrupted him by kissing him, something I had longed to do since I found his blog. Knight may have not been what I imagined him, but he certainly wasn't hard to look at. Perhaps it was due to my sexual frustration, but that kiss was something...even I with my century worth of experience felt electricity in the air, a spark between Knight & me.
I just felt like this was the perfect way of saying goodbye to him, because I knew that the chances of us meeting again would be slim.
"Thanks for everything Knight"
"No problem..."
I hugged him and then me & Lucia were on our merry way. We called a cab.
We were heading towards the airport.
Speaking of Belgium, that is quite fortunate...I can find out if Alicia exists in this universe.
Oh yeah, Knight had appeared again, just as I predicted.
I'm glad he's okay, don't get me wrong, but to say that I'm a horrible person for my apathy towards his disappearance is a bit harsh. I think people are forgetting that I know the fears, I know all these beings and if I don't know something personally I probably have heard stories about it from Slenderman.
I went with Lucia & Nate in a car, while Knight & Elijah drove in a separate one, not really important but I like to be detailed about these things.
Anyway, according to Jack the Rake was located in a forest right outside of New York City. Once there I was instructed by Elijah that it would be best to go alone as Rake would most likely suspect something if we all went in there together.
I walked into the forest, it was a rather closely grown forest which means there was barely any source of light. It took me some time in order to reach the middle of the forest or at least some sort of empty area.
Of course the way the trees were growing, it was still dark. But after staring into the gap, I started seeing a glim of a creature of sorts, it was the Rake.
The Rake looked at me, it was nothing like I imagined. It looked like a hairless werewolf with long razor sharp claws made out of what looked like steel. I'm not one to admit this, but I was scared for just a moment there.
"Hello Samara" it said, with a really harsh voice.
Anyway, it called me Samara, which isn't the strangest or most offensive thing somebody has called me, but I digress.
"State...thy...wish, Samara" It said & pointed at me with those steel claws of his.
It seemed to assume that I was there to wish for something, it must've suspected me. That worried me for a moment, since perhaps it knew of the tracking device as well.
"Rake...I wish to meet Slenderman"
"That...I can't...arrange" It said, breathing heavily during each pause.
"Can you help me at least?"
"Well...there is a way"
"What?"
"In the ... land... you humans...call Belgium" It said, "There is a man...who is...of interest...to Slenderman. He could...be the key"
"Who might that be?"
"His name...is Ira Sage"
After that I thanked it, I put the tracking device on it when I hugged it goodbye, the device was just a sticker, so it was easy to put on it.
When I was about to leave it called out to me.
"Samara..."
I turned around, it was pointing at me.
"Samara...you're but....a chess piece...don't...forget that"
That worried me a little, but I decided to put it on the backburner for now.
I walked out of the forest, unhurt with me having gained everything I could from this operation.
Knight & the Deicide guys were standing in front of the forest entrance, with Knight looking really relieved that I was unhurt. I wanted to just taunt the fact that nothing happened, but I thought that might have been thought of as childish, besides my actions spoke for themselves.
I nodded to the Deicide guys that basically said that the deed was done.
I went over to Knight, you know to say goodbye.
"Well...it's over" I said.
"What did it say?"
"It told me to go to Belgium, find a guy named Ira Sage. It called me Samara"
"Samara?"
"Yes..."
"That's odd...do you think tha-"
I interrupted him by kissing him, something I had longed to do since I found his blog. Knight may have not been what I imagined him, but he certainly wasn't hard to look at. Perhaps it was due to my sexual frustration, but that kiss was something...even I with my century worth of experience felt electricity in the air, a spark between Knight & me.
I just felt like this was the perfect way of saying goodbye to him, because I knew that the chances of us meeting again would be slim.
"Thanks for everything Knight"
"No problem..."
I hugged him and then me & Lucia were on our merry way. We called a cab.
We were heading towards the airport.
Speaking of Belgium, that is quite fortunate...I can find out if Alicia exists in this universe.
Friday, January 18, 2013
Date!
So after thinking a bit harder, it couldn't have been Slenderman since like Lucia mentioned he doesn't go to the human world, after that I was faced with another revelation Knight being missing. Although Knight is arguably one of the few humans I tolerate, he is still human which means like Lucia said it well, he is on the losing side.
As such I'm not really going to mourn him, but knowing the fears they wouldn't kill him outright like this. Everything is a game to the fears and they live on that...fear, if anything it would make more sense that Slendy or whatever that was in his room abducted him as a threat or a warning. Happens all the time in fearblogs.
With that thought in mind I was rather cheerful when I arrived at some corny french resteraunt. It doesn't take a lot to wow me, but often I like to go along and pretend that I'm impressed with the generic french restaurant scene.
Nathan was already there when I arrived. Again, he didn't specify this to be a date, but who really does when they ask someone out?
"So...Nathan, how are you?" I asked.
"Fine"
After some pleasantries & talk about Knight's disappearance we finally cut into the date-like component.
"So Cecilia, how old are you?"
"Oh...the Deicide doesn't have file on me?"
"We do, but I like to pretend that I didn't read it...for the sake of the date" he said and winked at me.
"Ah alright, I'm turning 137 this year. Although obviously I have the body of a 19 year old, due to you know"
"The hollowed thing?"
"Well...I was hollowed for a while, before being unhollowed by the request of my sister, who made a deal with the Jack of All Trades. After that I became a servant of the Mother of Snakes, a Lilim by choice, after a few months of servitude I became a high ranking one if I may say so myself. For my birthday she gave me the assignment to start take care of the crossroads of trials...you know the plants and garden, aside from also being one of the trials"
This may seem much, but when it comes to myself I can talk for hours. Mostly because I love it when people show interest in me. I guess that wraps up how I became unhollowed, I'm not sure why I put it off till now to post it here, but I guess I've just been busy.
What happened to my sister after the deal is another story & that venture is the reason Jack owes me a favor. I will tell that tale another time.
When our food arrived, he took out this big knife, almost like a small samurai blade out of his pocket and started using it to cut the food. The people in the restaurant, including the waiters looked worried.
"That's an interesting dagger" I said.
"Hmm...yeah, its unique isn't it?"
"Yes, I guess so"
He started to cut his meat with it. That and his overly confident attitude made me hate him a little.
I decided that my sexual frustration aside I was going to call of the date.
"Listen Nathan, I've had a wonderful evening but I'm afraid we have to call it a night"
"Why?" he asked, raising one eyebrow.
"Well, I'm just....shaken up about Knight & also I already have a lover..." I said.
I told him that I was in a committed long-distance relationship with a girl named Alicia, which give or take I am. Because either she is in Belgium or another universes' Belgium, either way its long distance.
He said that he understood and left.
As such I'm not really going to mourn him, but knowing the fears they wouldn't kill him outright like this. Everything is a game to the fears and they live on that...fear, if anything it would make more sense that Slendy or whatever that was in his room abducted him as a threat or a warning. Happens all the time in fearblogs.
With that thought in mind I was rather cheerful when I arrived at some corny french resteraunt. It doesn't take a lot to wow me, but often I like to go along and pretend that I'm impressed with the generic french restaurant scene.
Nathan was already there when I arrived. Again, he didn't specify this to be a date, but who really does when they ask someone out?
"So...Nathan, how are you?" I asked.
"Fine"
After some pleasantries & talk about Knight's disappearance we finally cut into the date-like component.
"So Cecilia, how old are you?"
"Oh...the Deicide doesn't have file on me?"
"We do, but I like to pretend that I didn't read it...for the sake of the date" he said and winked at me.
"Ah alright, I'm turning 137 this year. Although obviously I have the body of a 19 year old, due to you know"
"The hollowed thing?"
"Well...I was hollowed for a while, before being unhollowed by the request of my sister, who made a deal with the Jack of All Trades. After that I became a servant of the Mother of Snakes, a Lilim by choice, after a few months of servitude I became a high ranking one if I may say so myself. For my birthday she gave me the assignment to start take care of the crossroads of trials...you know the plants and garden, aside from also being one of the trials"
This may seem much, but when it comes to myself I can talk for hours. Mostly because I love it when people show interest in me. I guess that wraps up how I became unhollowed, I'm not sure why I put it off till now to post it here, but I guess I've just been busy.
What happened to my sister after the deal is another story & that venture is the reason Jack owes me a favor. I will tell that tale another time.
When our food arrived, he took out this big knife, almost like a small samurai blade out of his pocket and started using it to cut the food. The people in the restaurant, including the waiters looked worried.
"That's an interesting dagger" I said.
"Hmm...yeah, its unique isn't it?"
"Yes, I guess so"
He started to cut his meat with it. That and his overly confident attitude made me hate him a little.
I decided that my sexual frustration aside I was going to call of the date.
"Listen Nathan, I've had a wonderful evening but I'm afraid we have to call it a night"
"Why?" he asked, raising one eyebrow.
"Well, I'm just....shaken up about Knight & also I already have a lover..." I said.
I told him that I was in a committed long-distance relationship with a girl named Alicia, which give or take I am. Because either she is in Belgium or another universes' Belgium, either way its long distance.
He said that he understood and left.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Torture!
Alright!
So I had the meeting with Deicide. Knight went somewhere to talk to Elijah leaving me & Lucia with Nathan which was actually better since Elijah gives even me the creeps. There is just something about him, he acts nice and all but I just don't buy it.
Anyway…Nathan gave me a tracking device which I promised to put on the Rake, it was like a little sticker.
Then Lucia went into this whole argument with Nathan about the torture of the Wendigo, a hybrid of Rake & Smiling Man.
She is getting on my nerves a bit, I agree with her in theory but she doesn’t have to be so annoying about it.
Nathan after a while asked me out to dinner. He didn't outright say it was a date, but I'm sure that was his intention. I haven't seen a person this smooth since maybe Alicia, but that could just be my interpretations of her comments. Anyway, since I really hadn't gotten laid since this whole thing started and he was a rather good looking and charming guy, I agreed.
In more important news, I saw Slenderman or at least I think, so.
After the meeting at the Deicide base Knight asked me a bunch of stuff about what I think about the fears & also what I knew about the crossroads, we had a lovely conversation about it, but nothing really noteworthy.
After that he retreated to his room, looking kind of worried.
I was a bit worried about him & I wanted to ask him about what he & Elijah were talking about.
When he didn’t come out when I knocked, I decided to do the logical thing and break into his room. It was easy, since he left his door open.
Thats where I sawdaddy Slenderman. It was the middle of the
night & the room wasn’t lit, but from the glimpse of light shining
from the moon I saw the suit, Slenderman’s suit…I would recognize it
everywhere! I’m pretty sure at least. He even looked at me, I'm pretty sure it was him.
Sadly after I yelled out his name, he became startled and vanished.
Knight was gone…he must’ve taken Knight with him.
But more importantly, if it was Slenderman why didn’t he talk to me?
Why is he torturing me like this!?
So I had the meeting with Deicide. Knight went somewhere to talk to Elijah leaving me & Lucia with Nathan which was actually better since Elijah gives even me the creeps. There is just something about him, he acts nice and all but I just don't buy it.
Anyway…Nathan gave me a tracking device which I promised to put on the Rake, it was like a little sticker.
Then Lucia went into this whole argument with Nathan about the torture of the Wendigo, a hybrid of Rake & Smiling Man.
She is getting on my nerves a bit, I agree with her in theory but she doesn’t have to be so annoying about it.
Nathan after a while asked me out to dinner. He didn't outright say it was a date, but I'm sure that was his intention. I haven't seen a person this smooth since maybe Alicia, but that could just be my interpretations of her comments. Anyway, since I really hadn't gotten laid since this whole thing started and he was a rather good looking and charming guy, I agreed.
In more important news, I saw Slenderman or at least I think, so.
After the meeting at the Deicide base Knight asked me a bunch of stuff about what I think about the fears & also what I knew about the crossroads, we had a lovely conversation about it, but nothing really noteworthy.
After that he retreated to his room, looking kind of worried.
I was a bit worried about him & I wanted to ask him about what he & Elijah were talking about.
When he didn’t come out when I knocked, I decided to do the logical thing and break into his room. It was easy, since he left his door open.
Thats where I saw
Sadly after I yelled out his name, he became startled and vanished.
Knight was gone…he must’ve taken Knight with him.
But more importantly, if it was Slenderman why didn’t he talk to me?
Why is he torturing me like this!?
Monday, January 14, 2013
Question!
Alright...I've been wondering. Here I am trying to get two members of an organization called Deicide & a guy knowledgeable about fears to help me, but I've been wondering.
What if I don't make it? What if I'm going to be a human, forever?
I just couldn't live with myself if I failed this mission. I would've let myself down and most importantlydaddy...Slenderman.
I just...
What if I don't make it? What if I'm going to be a human, forever?
I just couldn't live with myself if I failed this mission. I would've let myself down and most importantly
I just...
Sunday, January 13, 2013
*sigh*
<_< I'm really not in the mood for this, but Cecilia thinks it would be good for me to blow off steam with blogging.
We met these guys from ehm...Deicide I think was it & they said that they expirment on a being that is a hybrid of the Rake & Smiling Man.
WHY WOULD THEY DO SUCH A THING?
It is just cruel.
Maybe my involvement with such things makes it kind of hard for me to speak unbiased about the nature of these matters.
I work for one... fear that is <_< If I am going to be honest, I actually like working for the fear I work for(I'm not telling which though, because those Deicide guys would be all over me about it, I assume). That is why I want to help Cecilia, because I know how...ehm o.o Awesome...just the feeling of being on the winning side, the power, the nurture...everything... <ö<
It is just an overwhelmingly good feeling to work for them.
My employer wanted me to keep an eye on Knight o.o
Apparently he doesn't like Knight o.o Don't really see why, he seems alright!
This was relaxing, I should do this more often o.o
We met these guys from ehm...Deicide I think was it & they said that they expirment on a being that is a hybrid of the Rake & Smiling Man.
WHY WOULD THEY DO SUCH A THING?
It is just cruel.
Maybe my involvement with such things makes it kind of hard for me to speak unbiased about the nature of these matters.
I work for one... fear that is <_< If I am going to be honest, I actually like working for the fear I work for(I'm not telling which though, because those Deicide guys would be all over me about it, I assume). That is why I want to help Cecilia, because I know how...ehm o.o Awesome...just the feeling of being on the winning side, the power, the nurture...everything... <ö<
It is just an overwhelmingly good feeling to work for them.
My employer wanted me to keep an eye on Knight o.o
Apparently he doesn't like Knight o.o Don't really see why, he seems alright!
This was relaxing, I should do this more often o.o
God!
So we met up with Deicide agents called Nathan & Elijah. They are pretty much the biggest tools I've met on the face of this planet up til now, they are from that organization that I mentioned in the last post. The one that test out & speculate plans to bring down the fears.
They asked if I would be bringing anything to the table, in which I return said that I could probably place a tracking device on it.
Knight kept bugging me about how this plan is stupid, so much so that I was seconds away from tearing up and running out of the room like a little girl. I should be stronger than letting the disproval of Knight break me down.
Anyway, we talked for a while with them. Knight asked about his stupid organization. To my surprise in the midst of it, when they were discussing the hybrids that they make in order to test what works to combat the fears Lucia started talking, like not even in the usual hyperactive manner. She talked in a melancholic tone, like she was upset.
"How could you be so cruel to it?" Lucia said or something, I tend to space out a lot.
They said that its a natural thing, the fears are not thinking twice about use, why should they.
I am staying out of that controversial discussion, because honestly I agree with Lucia a bit, only a bit.
Knight thinks I have psychological issues, like Stockholm Syndrome. Knight, just stop it alright. I'm going to be fine.
Me & the Rake used to "hang" as the kids call it. Alright I've never met the Rake, but Slenderman told me a lot of stories & Mother did so as well. Based on these stories I've deduced that the Rake is highly intelligent and would probably be able to make a deal of some sorts. As to how I'm going to find the Rake, that is a bit more tricky, Lucia said that her employer might know where it is, but it's not a sure thing.
I'm thinking that giving it some sort of message for a meetup would be the best way to do it, like some kind of flare gun or a flyer with a message only the Rake would get, but I might know one guy who knows where it's located and owes me a favor. I would have to talk to the Deicide guys about that later on
I like Mother. Being a servant of Mother was great, watching over the crossroads(a domain given to me as a gift from Mother, who talked the crossroads into it.)
Dare I say it, I miss them.
They asked if I would be bringing anything to the table, in which I return said that I could probably place a tracking device on it.
Knight kept bugging me about how this plan is stupid, so much so that I was seconds away from tearing up and running out of the room like a little girl. I should be stronger than letting the disproval of Knight break me down.
Anyway, we talked for a while with them. Knight asked about his stupid organization. To my surprise in the midst of it, when they were discussing the hybrids that they make in order to test what works to combat the fears Lucia started talking, like not even in the usual hyperactive manner. She talked in a melancholic tone, like she was upset.
"How could you be so cruel to it?" Lucia said or something, I tend to space out a lot.
They said that its a natural thing, the fears are not thinking twice about use, why should they.
I am staying out of that controversial discussion, because honestly I agree with Lucia a bit, only a bit.
Knight thinks I have psychological issues, like Stockholm Syndrome. Knight, just stop it alright. I'm going to be fine.
Me & the Rake used to "hang" as the kids call it. Alright I've never met the Rake, but Slenderman told me a lot of stories & Mother did so as well. Based on these stories I've deduced that the Rake is highly intelligent and would probably be able to make a deal of some sorts. As to how I'm going to find the Rake, that is a bit more tricky, Lucia said that her employer might know where it is, but it's not a sure thing.
I'm thinking that giving it some sort of message for a meetup would be the best way to do it, like some kind of flare gun or a flyer with a message only the Rake would get, but I might know one guy who knows where it's located and owes me a favor. I would have to talk to the Deicide guys about that later on
I like Mother. Being a servant of Mother was great, watching over the crossroads(a domain given to me as a gift from Mother, who talked the crossroads into it.)
Dare I say it, I miss them.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Things!
I decided to make a quick update, despite the fact that nothing of significance has happened aside from me & Knight arguing. Lucia has been, well Lucia has been Lucia. She's really jumpy, I was fine with it at first, but I feel compelled to hate her. I still think she will come in handy, but she is really pushing it.
I've just been reading how Alicia hates people that like or are associated with fears. I didn't like that, because honestly I think people have the wrong idea about fears; They are scary & annoying, sure, but I don't think they are as threatening as people say they are, you just have to find their weak points.
Anyway, Alicia sort of apologized for it, so it is alright.
Knight's blog had some kind of weird update, don't really know what that is about. Also it seems his opinion of me has worsened a bit. Not that I care what a human would think of me, but still...I kind of like Knight, so I really don't want him to dislike me; Although I think his problem is not with me, but just my plans around the Rake.
Other than that, we three are still just waiting for Deicide to contact us.
I've just been reading how Alicia hates people that like or are associated with fears. I didn't like that, because honestly I think people have the wrong idea about fears; They are scary & annoying, sure, but I don't think they are as threatening as people say they are, you just have to find their weak points.
Anyway, Alicia sort of apologized for it, so it is alright.
Knight's blog had some kind of weird update, don't really know what that is about. Also it seems his opinion of me has worsened a bit. Not that I care what a human would think of me, but still...I kind of like Knight, so I really don't want him to dislike me; Although I think his problem is not with me, but just my plans around the Rake.
Other than that, we three are still just waiting for Deicide to contact us.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Knight!
I must say that Lucia is alright. She's a bit too perky & jumpy for her own good which kind of annoys me, but she's resourceful & knows a lot about fears. Anyway, we decided to go after the Rake, since if I know the Rake it is probably the best one to tell us what to do in order to get to Slenderman since from what I've heard Rake has large amount of knowledge about the fears & is quite intelligent. I'm not saying that it has any connection to Slenderman, I wouldn't know about that. But at least it could help me, maybe.
Since I don't know where any of the fears are I decided to call in an expert, my lovely Knight. I emailed him asking him to come over to New York, which is by the way where I'm at apparently & he came over here.
Knight is nothing like I pictured him, he's african-american, short haired and taller than I expected. Not that it's any worse than what I imagined, in fact I think he's more handsome than I expected.
Despite my hatred for humanity I think Knight really stands out for me as awesome & a rather attractive human at that.
And perhaps Lucia & that Alicia, although I suspect she's in a different world than me, shame.
Anyway, Knight was not happy with me when I was in no real danger. I actually just knew that he would come, because after Shady's death he has been a bit protective of people.
"So you weren't in any danger at all."
"I said I needed your help and that it was urgent"
"It's a bad idea. They - especially the Rake - don't help people."
"Come on, you know how important this goal is to me"
"What are you trying to accomplish? Getting into the Tall Man's realm and having a chat about why you were fired? Listen to me, Cecilia - it's a fool's errand. It hasn't bothered you, and maybe you'll be lucky and it'll stay that way. Let it go."
"No, I must at least try Knight"
Knight booked a hotel room next to hours, he was pretty pissed at me. I actually find him cute when he's mad.
The next morning I found this blog, A Light Shining in the Darkness. It's about some sort of organization that tries to kill fears. I suspected that with Knight & these guys combined I could easily achieve my goal of speaking to the Rake.
I told Knight about it & he seemed really interested in meeting this organization, so I think Knight is on board, despite being against my plan.
One thing I've noticed, Lucia has a weird trait, she hugs people instead of saying good morning. Not that I'm complaining mind you, but I find it just odd.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Hello ^ö^
Well, hello!
Cecillia asked me to be part of this blog. I gladly accepted, because I love blogging or at least I did back in high school ^^.
I've been trying to trace down Cecillia for a while now, because I knew about her situation.
I heard it from, my employer who tends to deal with this kind of matter o.o.
Today, I didn't do much except tell said employer that I had found her ^^.
I'm going to try helping her. Our plan is trying to find a way to access the path of black leaves.
Cecillia suggested that we get help from another fear, like the Rake perhaps.
I thought that was a splendid idea ^ö^
I hope it goes well o.o .
It probably will ^-^.
Cecillia asked me to be part of this blog. I gladly accepted, because I love blogging or at least I did back in high school ^^.
I've been trying to trace down Cecillia for a while now, because I knew about her situation.
I heard it from, my employer who tends to deal with this kind of matter o.o.
Today, I didn't do much except tell said employer that I had found her ^^.
I'm going to try helping her. Our plan is trying to find a way to access the path of black leaves.
Cecillia suggested that we get help from another fear, like the Rake perhaps.
I thought that was a splendid idea ^ö^
I hope it goes well o.o .
It probably will ^-^.
Monday, January 7, 2013
Newspaper!
Today I saw an interesting ad in the newspaper, it was a woman looking for me. I know that sounds like a typical day. All kidding aside, this woman was around my appearant age.
Yes, I say appearant because I kind of doubt that she's 137, she was 20.
She placed an ad in the newspaper that I happen to find.
Lucia seems like the cheerful & perky type, but she has a delightful british and classy demeanor that I find just fun to be around.
We discussed Slenderman over coffee, I of course didn't trust her but judging by what she said she seemed to understand a lot of things about the fears. I mean think of it this way, if Proxiehunter had done the same and contacted me, would I trust him? Of course not, but that doesn't keep me from getting some help from the person. I just have to be alert.
Yes, I say appearant because I kind of doubt that she's 137, she was 20.
She placed an ad in the newspaper that I happen to find.
Looking for Cecilia Zeak
Dear Cecilia, I wish to help you. My name is Lucia Sene.
I'm 20, but I know of your situation & wish to help.
Please call me.
Phone: 542-665-546
~Lucia Sene
Because I've not made any progress in finding Slenderman, except for getting shot at I decided to accept her offer. I called her up & invited her to take part in writing this blog.
Lucia seems like the cheerful & perky type, but she has a delightful british and classy demeanor that I find just fun to be around.
We discussed Slenderman over coffee, I of course didn't trust her but judging by what she said she seemed to understand a lot of things about the fears. I mean think of it this way, if Proxiehunter had done the same and contacted me, would I trust him? Of course not, but that doesn't keep me from getting some help from the person. I just have to be alert.
She told me all kinds of things about Slenderman not even I knew. She said that Slenderman never goes into the human world, so the only chance to see him would be to somehow gain access to the path of black leaves.
That could be dangerous, the only way would be perhaps the doors or the godsway since the path is a bit restricted, which will make it way harder for me to get in touch.
I've also been emailing back and forth with Raggedy whose blog is the Last Midnight.
Not as much of a tool as I thought he would be. So far it has just been chit-chat.
I guess I don't have to do this alone anymore.
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Preperation!
Once again I write with my one good arm, I can't very well see a doctor. Both because I don't have insurance or enough money & also because due to a certain being I've become paranoid of doctors.
While browsing trough Owls sleeping in the clouds, a rather new yet really fun fearblog I stumbled across Proxiehunter commenting on one of the posts. I know big surprise, christ the guy comments more on blogs than I do. He linked to post on his blog entitled "What every runner should own". It got me to think that perhaps I should prepare better than the 50$ I have left & the four slim jims that I bought at the gas station.
So I went trough his list and got what I could find. I had a backpack that I bought from the maid at the sleazy motel I stayed at prior for 10$ & went back to the restaurant and stole their first aid kit.
A lot of the items I couldn't find. Like a weapon, which used to be simple to get the first time I did this, but I guess times have changed. From the kitchen of the restaurant I also grabbed a big kitchen knife in one of those protective sleeves on my way out.
More than that I couldn't find. To runners and vengeance seekers out there, I suggest reading Proxie's list, he knows his stuff people!
While browsing trough Owls sleeping in the clouds, a rather new yet really fun fearblog I stumbled across Proxiehunter commenting on one of the posts. I know big surprise, christ the guy comments more on blogs than I do. He linked to post on his blog entitled "What every runner should own". It got me to think that perhaps I should prepare better than the 50$ I have left & the four slim jims that I bought at the gas station.
So I went trough his list and got what I could find. I had a backpack that I bought from the maid at the sleazy motel I stayed at prior for 10$ & went back to the restaurant and stole their first aid kit.
A lot of the items I couldn't find. Like a weapon, which used to be simple to get the first time I did this, but I guess times have changed. From the kitchen of the restaurant I also grabbed a big kitchen knife in one of those protective sleeves on my way out.
More than that I couldn't find. To runners and vengeance seekers out there, I suggest reading Proxie's list, he knows his stuff people!
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Literature!
I've recovered from my shot wound, sort of. It of course hasn't magically healed in the last two days, but thanks to how I treated it I'm able to stand again, but I can't use it.
I'm left-handed, so that's an upside I guess.
Since I decided not to do any more "field" work until I recovered, I checked myself into a 3 star motel with the remainder of my money, which at this point was around 90$. 20$ a night seems reasonable, especially if I get breakfast.
My room had a computer, so I decided to start reading some blogs, like the good old days.
Denmarlens S.F.S, this is a bizarre slenderblog or at least I think its a slenderblog, but the guy who runs it, James; He seems like a nice fellow. Although he kind of can drag on and on about barely anything.
Then I found another slenderblog called Grey of Winter. The site itself is a bit weird since it's all in dutch, so commenting on it was a bit tricky. To be honest the runner seems like the kind of person that would kill you for your shoes or at least that's the vibe I got from his blog.
The writer of Tale of Tales is a charming girl indeed, really nice in a way that doesn't really bother me that much.
That's really all I could find.
I'm really tired, I should probably get some rest.
I HATE THIS!
I'm left-handed, so that's an upside I guess.
Since I decided not to do any more "field" work until I recovered, I checked myself into a 3 star motel with the remainder of my money, which at this point was around 90$. 20$ a night seems reasonable, especially if I get breakfast.
My room had a computer, so I decided to start reading some blogs, like the good old days.
Denmarlens S.F.S, this is a bizarre slenderblog or at least I think its a slenderblog, but the guy who runs it, James; He seems like a nice fellow. Although he kind of can drag on and on about barely anything.
Then I found another slenderblog called Grey of Winter. The site itself is a bit weird since it's all in dutch, so commenting on it was a bit tricky. To be honest the runner seems like the kind of person that would kill you for your shoes or at least that's the vibe I got from his blog.
The writer of Tale of Tales is a charming girl indeed, really nice in a way that doesn't really bother me that much.
That's really all I could find.
I'm really tired, I should probably get some rest.
I HATE THIS!
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Alone!
Fuck!
She was a servant of sorts, for what fear I'm not sure.
Some of the fears I've never had to deal with their servants, so that defiantly confused me.
Alright perhaps I should go back a bit.
It started of very normally, I discussed my proposal & offered her payment in return.
All the sudden she flips the table, takes out a gun and points it at me.
"So you're going to hurt Father?"
"Who?" I asked, never having heard that name before.
"My master!"
"Who might that be?"
"Shut up, you ignorant hussy!"
She shot me in the freaking shoulder, the right one. People started fleeing, like is normal for humans.
"BITCH" I yelled & screamed in agony.
As much as my shoulder hurt right then, I tried my best to hold it in. Pain was not something I've had much experience with or at least not since I was like 18 or something, so of course I screamed.
It wasn't until I manage to hit her with a platter that I got enough head start in order to get away.
Although, I'm unsure if I truly shook her off, seems unlikely.
FUCK, that hurt!
It still does. I didn't expect this.
She was a servant of sorts, for what fear I'm not sure.
Some of the fears I've never had to deal with their servants, so that defiantly confused me.
Alright perhaps I should go back a bit.
It started of very normally, I discussed my proposal & offered her payment in return.
All the sudden she flips the table, takes out a gun and points it at me.
"So you're going to hurt Father?"
"Who?" I asked, never having heard that name before.
"My master!"
"Who might that be?"
"Shut up, you ignorant hussy!"
She shot me in the freaking shoulder, the right one. People started fleeing, like is normal for humans.
"BITCH" I yelled & screamed in agony.
As much as my shoulder hurt right then, I tried my best to hold it in. Pain was not something I've had much experience with or at least not since I was like 18 or something, so of course I screamed.
It wasn't until I manage to hit her with a platter that I got enough head start in order to get away.
Although, I'm unsure if I truly shook her off, seems unlikely.
FUCK, that hurt!
It still does. I didn't expect this.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Honesty!
I have to come clean about something before I continue further with this mission.
I have no idea what I'm doing.
For all that I ramble on about Slenderman being not intimidating, that was back when he couldn't you know kill me. Except for my experience the first time around as a runner, I have little idea what I'm up against.
Even my reading of countless of "slenderblogs" aren't really helping, because they basically tell the same tale.
All I can do is try doing the opposite of what I did 119 years ago.
I hope it works.
I have no idea what I'm doing.
For all that I ramble on about Slenderman being not intimidating, that was back when he couldn't you know kill me. Except for my experience the first time around as a runner, I have little idea what I'm up against.
Even my reading of countless of "slenderblogs" aren't really helping, because they basically tell the same tale.
All I can do is try doing the opposite of what I did 119 years ago.
I hope it works.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Celebration!
Apparently it's new year's day. I remember when I was a kid, my father used to buy a cake and that was my new year's treat. We didn't have a lot of money, so this was rather special to me.
I even remember one time on new year's 1886, I came with him to the bakery and picked the cake.
That was rather pleasant.
Enough about that, I went to a friend's house. Or at least I call her a friend for the sake of the mission.
Her name is Davi. She's like 19 I believe and is such a library when regarding the matters of fears,especially Slenderman.
I saw her while I observed the world from above as they say. She was involved with Mother and I believe for a while it looked like she would became Mother's servant, but turns out Mother got bored with her.
I didn't exactly know if she was here or not, but I thought it might as well check out since it would help me find out what universe I'm in, not to mention would help me out greatly with Slenderman.
I invited her to dinner under the pretense of my fake identity, Sidney Goldstein. She didn't accept at first, but I told her that I was going to offer her a job, which I technically am going to.
I'm going to see where this goes.
Happy new year by the way, to the ones reading.
I even remember one time on new year's 1886, I came with him to the bakery and picked the cake.
That was rather pleasant.
Enough about that, I went to a friend's house. Or at least I call her a friend for the sake of the mission.
Her name is Davi. She's like 19 I believe and is such a library when regarding the matters of fears,especially Slenderman.
I saw her while I observed the world from above as they say. She was involved with Mother and I believe for a while it looked like she would became Mother's servant, but turns out Mother got bored with her.
I didn't exactly know if she was here or not, but I thought it might as well check out since it would help me find out what universe I'm in, not to mention would help me out greatly with Slenderman.
I invited her to dinner under the pretense of my fake identity, Sidney Goldstein. She didn't accept at first, but I told her that I was going to offer her a job, which I technically am going to.
I'm going to see where this goes.
Happy new year by the way, to the ones reading.
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