Finale!

Alright, after getting a tip from Jack about the whereabouts of the Rake, I rounded up people and we were on our marry way.

Oh yeah, Knight had appeared again, just as I predicted.
I'm glad he's okay, don't get me wrong, but to say that I'm a horrible person for my apathy towards his disappearance is a bit harsh. I think people are forgetting that I know the fears, I know all these beings and if I don't know something personally I probably have heard stories about it from Slenderman.

I went with Lucia & Nate in a car, while Knight & Elijah drove in a separate one, not really important but I like to be detailed about these things.

Anyway, according to Jack the Rake was located in a forest right outside of New York City. Once there I was instructed by Elijah that it would be best to go alone as Rake would most likely suspect something if we all went in there together.

I walked into the forest, it was a rather closely grown forest  which means there was barely any source of light. It took me some time in order to reach the middle of the forest or at least some sort of empty area.

Of course the way the trees were growing, it was still dark. But after staring into the gap, I started seeing a glim of a creature of sorts, it was the Rake.

The Rake looked at me, it was nothing like I imagined. It looked like a hairless werewolf with long razor sharp claws made out of what looked like steel. I'm not one to admit this, but I was scared for just a moment there.

"Hello Samara" it said, with a really harsh voice.

Anyway, it called me Samara, which isn't the strangest or most offensive thing somebody has called me, but I digress.

"State...thy...wish, Samara" It said & pointed at me with those steel claws of his.

It seemed to assume that I was there to wish for something, it must've suspected me. That worried me for a moment, since perhaps it knew of the tracking device as well.

"Rake...I wish to meet Slenderman"

"That...I can't...arrange" It said, breathing heavily during each pause.

"Can you help me at least?"

"Well...there is a way"

"What?"

"In the ... land... you humans...call Belgium" It said, "There is a man...who is...of interest...to Slenderman. He could...be the key"

"Who might that be?"

"His name...is Ira Sage"

After that I thanked it, I put the tracking device on it when I hugged it goodbye, the device was just a sticker, so it was easy to put on it.

When I was about to leave it called out to me.

"Samara..."

I turned around, it was pointing at me.

"Samara...you're but....a chess piece...don't...forget that"

That worried me a little, but I decided to put it on the backburner for now.
I walked out of the forest, unhurt with me having gained everything I could from this operation.

Knight & the Deicide guys were standing in front of the forest entrance, with Knight looking really relieved that I was unhurt. I wanted to just taunt the fact that nothing happened, but I thought that might have been thought of as childish, besides my actions spoke for themselves.

I nodded to the Deicide guys that basically said that the deed was done.

I went over to Knight, you know to say goodbye.

"Well...it's over" I said.

"What did it say?"

"It told me to go to Belgium, find a guy named Ira Sage. It called me Samara"

"Samara?"

"Yes..."

"That's odd...do you think tha-"

I interrupted him by kissing him, something I had longed to do since I found his blog. Knight may have not been what I imagined him, but he certainly wasn't hard to look at. Perhaps it was due to my sexual frustration, but that kiss was something...even I with my century worth of experience felt electricity in the air, a spark between Knight & me.

I just felt like this was the perfect way of saying goodbye to him, because I knew that the chances of us meeting again would be slim.

"Thanks for everything Knight"

"No problem..."

I hugged him and then me & Lucia were on our merry way. We called a cab.
We were heading towards the airport.

Speaking of Belgium, that is quite fortunate...I can find out if Alicia exists in this universe.

Date!

So after thinking a bit harder, it couldn't have been Slenderman since like Lucia mentioned he doesn't go to the human world, after that I was faced with another revelation Knight being missing. Although Knight is arguably one of the few humans I tolerate, he is still human which means like Lucia said it well, he is on the losing side.

As such I'm not really going to mourn him, but knowing the fears they wouldn't kill him outright like this. Everything is a game to the fears and they live on that...fear, if anything it would make more sense that Slendy or whatever that was in his room abducted him as a threat or a warning. Happens all the time in fearblogs.

With that thought in mind I was rather cheerful when I arrived at some corny french resteraunt. It doesn't take a lot to wow me, but often I like to go along and pretend that I'm impressed with the generic french restaurant scene.

Nathan was already there when I arrived. Again, he didn't specify this to be a date, but who really does when they ask someone out?

"So...Nathan, how are you?" I asked.

"Fine"

After some pleasantries & talk about Knight's disappearance we finally cut into the date-like component.

"So Cecilia, how old are you?"

"Oh...the Deicide doesn't have file on me?"

"We do, but I like to pretend that I didn't read it...for the sake of the date" he said and winked at me.

"Ah alright, I'm turning 137 this year. Although obviously I have the body of a 19 year old, due to you know"

"The hollowed thing?"

"Well...I was hollowed for a while, before being unhollowed by the request of my sister, who made a deal with the Jack of All Trades. After that I became a servant of the Mother of Snakes, a Lilim by choice, after a few months of servitude I became a high ranking one if I may say so myself. For my birthday she gave me the assignment to start take care of the crossroads of trials...you know the plants and garden, aside from also being one of the trials"

This may seem much, but when it comes to myself I can talk for hours. Mostly because I love it when people show interest in me. I guess that wraps up how I became unhollowed, I'm not sure why I put it off till now to post it here, but I guess I've just been busy.

What happened to my sister after the deal is another story & that venture is the reason Jack owes me a favor. I will tell that tale another time.

When our food arrived, he took out this big knife, almost like a small samurai blade out of his pocket and started using it to cut the food. The people in the restaurant, including the waiters looked worried.

"That's an interesting dagger" I said.

"Hmm...yeah, its unique isn't it?"

"Yes, I guess so"

He started to cut his meat with it. That and his overly confident attitude made me hate him a little.
I decided that my sexual frustration aside I was going to call of the date.

"Listen Nathan, I've had a wonderful evening but I'm afraid we have to call it a night"

"Why?" he asked, raising one eyebrow.

"Well, I'm just....shaken up about Knight & also I already have a lover..." I said.

I told him that I was in a committed long-distance relationship with a girl named Alicia, which give or take I am. Because either she is in Belgium or another universes' Belgium, either way its long distance.

He said that he understood and left.

Torture!

Alright!
So I had the meeting with Deicide. Knight went somewhere to talk to Elijah leaving me & Lucia with Nathan which was actually better since Elijah gives even me the creeps. There is just something about him, he acts nice and all but I just don't buy it.

Anyway…Nathan gave me a tracking device which I promised to put on the Rake, it was like a little sticker.
Then Lucia went into this whole argument with Nathan about the torture of the Wendigo, a hybrid of Rake & Smiling Man.

She is getting on my nerves a bit, I agree with her in theory but she doesn’t have to be so annoying about it.

Nathan after a while asked me out to dinner. He didn't outright say it was a date, but I'm sure that was his intention. I haven't seen a person this smooth since maybe Alicia, but that could just be my interpretations of her comments. Anyway, since I really hadn't gotten laid since this whole thing started and he was a rather good looking and charming guy, I agreed. 

In more important news, I saw Slenderman or at least I think, so.

After the meeting at the Deicide base Knight asked me a bunch of stuff about what I think about the fears & also what I knew about the crossroads, we had a lovely conversation about it, but nothing really noteworthy.

After that he retreated to his room, looking kind of worried.
I was a bit worried about him & I wanted to ask him about what he & Elijah were talking about.
When he didn’t come out when I knocked, I decided to do the logical thing and break into his room. It was easy, since he left his door open.

Thats where I saw daddy Slenderman. It was the middle of the night & the room wasn’t lit, but from the glimpse of light shining from the moon I saw the suit, Slenderman’s suit…I would recognize it everywhere! I’m pretty sure at least. He even looked at me, I'm pretty sure it was him.

Sadly after I yelled out his name, he became startled and vanished.
Knight was gone…he must’ve taken Knight with him.

But more importantly, if it was Slenderman why didn’t he talk to me?
Why is he torturing me like this!?

Question!

Alright...I've been wondering. Here I am trying to get two members of an organization called Deicide & a guy knowledgeable about fears to help me, but I've been wondering.

What if I don't make it? What if I'm going to be a human, forever?

I just couldn't live with myself if I failed this mission. I would've let myself down and most importantly daddy...Slenderman.

I just...

*sigh*

<_< I'm really not in the mood for this, but Cecilia thinks it would be good for me to blow off steam with blogging.

We met these guys from ehm...Deicide I think was it & they said that they expirment on a being that is a hybrid of the Rake & Smiling Man.

WHY WOULD THEY DO SUCH A THING?

It is just cruel.

Maybe my involvement with such things makes it kind of hard for me to speak unbiased about the nature of these matters.

I work for one... fear that is <_< If I am going to be honest, I actually like working for the fear I work for(I'm not telling which though, because those Deicide guys would be all over me about it, I assume). That is why I want to help Cecilia, because I know how...ehm o.o Awesome...just the feeling of being on the winning side, the power, the nurture...everything... <ö<

It is just an overwhelmingly good feeling to work for them.

My employer wanted me to keep an eye on Knight o.o
Apparently he doesn't like Knight o.o Don't really see why, he seems alright!

This was relaxing, I should do this more often o.o

God!

So we met up with Deicide agents called Nathan & Elijah. They are pretty much the biggest tools I've met on the face of this planet up til now, they are from that organization that I mentioned in the last post. The one that test out & speculate plans to bring down the fears.

They asked if I would be bringing anything to the table, in which I return said that I could probably place a tracking device on it.

 Knight kept bugging me about how this plan is stupid, so much so that I was seconds away from tearing up and running out of the room like a little girl. I should be stronger than letting the disproval of Knight break me down.

Anyway, we talked for a while with them. Knight asked about his stupid organization. To my surprise in the midst of it, when they were discussing the hybrids that they make in order to test what works to combat the fears Lucia started talking, like not even in the usual hyperactive manner. She talked in a melancholic tone, like she was upset.

"How could you be so cruel to it?" Lucia said or something, I tend to space out a lot.

They said that its a natural thing, the fears are not thinking twice about use, why should they.
I am staying out of that controversial discussion, because honestly I agree with Lucia a bit, only a bit.

Knight thinks I have psychological issues, like Stockholm Syndrome. Knight, just stop it alright. I'm going to be fine.

Me & the Rake used to "hang" as the kids call it. Alright I've never met the Rake, but Slenderman told me a lot of stories & Mother did so as well. Based on these stories I've deduced that the Rake is highly intelligent and would probably be able to make a deal of some sorts. As to how I'm going to find the Rake, that is a bit more tricky, Lucia said that her employer might know where it is, but it's not a sure thing.

I'm thinking that giving it some sort of message for a meetup would be the best way to do it, like some kind of flare gun or a flyer with a message only the Rake would get, but I might know one guy who knows where it's located and owes me a favor. I would have to talk to the Deicide guys about that later on

I like Mother. Being a servant of Mother was great, watching over the crossroads(a domain given to me as a gift from Mother, who talked the crossroads into it.)

Dare I say it, I miss them.

Things!

I decided to make a quick update, despite the fact that nothing of significance has happened aside from me & Knight arguing. Lucia has been, well Lucia has been Lucia. She's really jumpy, I was fine with it at first, but I feel compelled to hate her. I still think she will come in handy, but she is really pushing it.

I've just been reading how Alicia hates people that like or are associated with fears. I didn't like that, because honestly I think people have the wrong idea about fears; They are scary &amp; annoying, sure, but I don't think they are as threatening as people say they are, you just have to find their weak points.

Anyway, Alicia sort of apologized for it, so it is alright.

Knight's blog had some kind of weird update, don't really know what that is about. Also it seems his opinion of me has worsened a bit. Not that I care what a human would think of me, but still...I kind of like Knight, so I really don't want him to dislike me; Although I think his problem is not with me, but just my plans around the Rake.

Other than that, we three are still just waiting for Deicide to contact us.

Knight!

I must say that Lucia is alright. She's a bit too perky & jumpy for her own good which kind of annoys me, but she's resourceful & knows a lot about fears. Anyway, we decided to go after the Rake, since if I know the Rake it is probably the best one to tell us what to do in order to get to Slenderman since from what I've heard Rake has large amount of knowledge about the fears & is quite intelligent. I'm not saying that it has any connection to Slenderman, I wouldn't know about that. But at least it could help me, maybe.

Since I don't know where any of the fears are I decided to call in an expert, my lovely Knight. I emailed him asking him to come over to New York, which is by the way where I'm at apparently & he came over here.

Knight is nothing like I pictured him, he's african-american, short haired and taller than I expected. Not that it's any worse than what I imagined, in fact I think he's more handsome than I expected.

Despite my hatred for humanity I think Knight really stands out for me as awesome & a rather attractive human at that.

And perhaps Lucia & that Alicia, although I suspect she's in a different world than me, shame.
Anyway, Knight was not happy with me when I was in no real danger. I actually just knew that he would come, because after Shady's death he has been a bit protective of people.

"So you weren't in any danger at all."

"I said I needed your help and that it was urgent"

"It's a bad idea. They - especially the Rake - don't help people."

"Come on, you know how important this goal is to me"

"What are you trying to accomplish? Getting into the Tall Man's realm and having a chat about why you were fired? Listen to me, Cecilia - it's a fool's errand. It hasn't bothered you, and maybe you'll be lucky and it'll stay that way. Let it go."

"No, I must at least try Knight"

Knight booked a hotel room next to hours, he was pretty pissed at me. I actually find him cute when he's mad.

The next morning I found this blog, A Light Shining in the Darkness. It's about some sort of organization that tries to kill fears. I suspected that with Knight & these guys combined I could easily achieve my goal of speaking to the Rake.


I told Knight about it & he seemed really interested in meeting this organization, so I think Knight is on board, despite being against my plan.

One thing I've noticed, Lucia has a weird trait, she hugs people instead of saying good morning. Not that I'm complaining mind you, but I find it just odd.

Hello ^ö^

Well, hello!
Cecillia asked me to be part of this blog. I gladly accepted, because I love blogging or at least I did back in high school ^^.
I've been trying to trace down Cecillia for a while now, because I knew about her situation.
I heard it from, my employer who tends to deal with this kind of matter o.o.

Today, I didn't do much except tell said employer that I had found her ^^.
I'm going to try helping her. Our plan is trying to find a way to access the path of black leaves.

Cecillia suggested that we get help from another fear, like the Rake perhaps.
I thought that was a splendid idea ^ö^

I hope it goes well o.o .
It probably will ^-^.

Newspaper!

Today I saw an interesting ad in the newspaper, it was a woman looking for me. I know that sounds like a typical day. All kidding aside, this woman was around my appearant age.
Yes, I say appearant because I kind of doubt that she's 137, she was 20.

She placed an ad in the newspaper that I happen to find.

Looking for Cecilia Zeak

Dear Cecilia, I wish to help you. My name is Lucia Sene.

I'm 20, but I know of your situation & wish to help.

Please call me.

Phone: 542-665-546

~Lucia Sene

Because I've not made any progress in finding Slenderman, except for getting shot at I decided to accept her offer. I called her up & invited her to take part in writing this blog. 

Lucia seems like the cheerful & perky type, but she has a delightful british and classy demeanor that I find just fun to be around.

We discussed Slenderman over coffee, I of course didn't trust her but judging by what she said she seemed to understand a lot of things about the fears. I mean think of it this way, if Proxiehunter had done the same and contacted me, would I trust him? Of course not, but that doesn't keep me from getting some help from the person. I just have to be alert.

 She told me all kinds of things about Slenderman not even I knew. She said that Slenderman never goes into the human world, so the only chance to see him would be to somehow gain access to the path of black leaves.

That could be dangerous, the only way would be perhaps the doors or the godsway since the path is a bit restricted, which will make it way harder for me to get in touch.

I've also been emailing back and forth with Raggedy whose blog is the Last Midnight.

Not as much of a tool as I thought he would be.  So far it has just been chit-chat.

I guess I don't have to do this alone anymore.

Preperation!

Once again I write with my one good arm, I can't very well see a doctor. Both because I don't have insurance or enough money & also because due to a certain being I've become paranoid of doctors.

While browsing trough Owls sleeping in the clouds, a rather new yet really fun fearblog I stumbled across Proxiehunter commenting on one of the posts. I know big surprise, christ the guy comments more on blogs than I do. He linked to post on his blog entitled "What every runner should own". It got me to think that perhaps I should prepare better than the 50$ I have left & the four slim jims that I bought at the gas station.

So I went trough his list and got what I could find. I had a backpack that I bought from the maid at the sleazy motel I stayed at prior for 10$ & went back to the restaurant and stole their first aid kit.

A lot of the items I couldn't find. Like a weapon, which used to be simple to get the first time I did this, but I guess times have changed. From the kitchen of the restaurant I also grabbed a big kitchen knife in one of those protective sleeves on my way out.

More than that I couldn't find. To runners and vengeance seekers out there, I suggest reading Proxie's list, he knows his stuff people!

Literature!

I've recovered from my shot wound, sort of. It of course hasn't magically healed in the last two days, but thanks to how I treated it I'm able to stand again, but I can't use it.
I'm left-handed, so that's an upside I guess.

Since I decided not to do any more "field" work until I recovered, I checked myself into a 3 star motel with the remainder of my money, which at this point was around 90$. 20$ a night seems reasonable, especially if I get breakfast.

My room had a computer, so I decided to start reading some blogs, like the good old days.

Denmarlens S.F.S, this is a bizarre slenderblog or at least I think its a slenderblog, but the guy who runs it, James; He seems like a nice fellow. Although he kind of can drag on and on about barely anything.

Then I found another slenderblog called Grey of Winter. The site itself is a bit weird since it's all in dutch, so commenting on it was a bit tricky. To be honest the runner seems like the kind of person that would kill you for your shoes or at least that's the vibe I got from his blog.

The writer of Tale of Tales is a charming girl indeed, really nice in a way that doesn't really bother me that much.

That's really all I could find.

I'm really tired, I should probably get some rest.

I HATE THIS!

Alone!

Fuck!
She was a servant of sorts, for what fear I'm not sure.

Some of the fears I've never had to deal with their servants, so that defiantly confused me.

Alright perhaps I should go back a bit.
It started of very normally, I discussed my proposal & offered her payment in return.
All the sudden she flips the table, takes out a gun and points it at me.

"So you're going to hurt Father?"

"Who?" I asked, never having heard that name before.

"My master!"

"Who might that be?"

"Shut up, you ignorant hussy!"

She shot me in the freaking shoulder, the right one. People started fleeing, like is normal for humans.

"BITCH" I yelled & screamed in agony.

As much as my shoulder hurt right then, I tried my best to hold it in. Pain was not something I've had much experience with or at least not since I was like 18 or something, so of course I screamed.

It wasn't until I manage to hit her with a platter that I got enough head start in order to get away.
Although, I'm unsure if I truly shook her off, seems unlikely.

FUCK, that hurt!
It still does. I didn't expect this.

Honesty!

I have to come clean about something before I continue further with this mission.
I have no idea what I'm doing.

For all that I ramble on about Slenderman being not intimidating, that was back when he couldn't you know kill me. Except for my experience the first time around as a runner, I have little idea what I'm up against.
Even my reading of countless of "slenderblogs" aren't really helping, because they basically tell the same tale.

All I can do is try doing the opposite of what I did 119 years ago.
I hope it works.

Celebration!

Apparently it's new year's day. I remember when I was a kid, my father used to buy a cake and that was my new year's treat. We didn't have a lot of money, so this was rather special to me.
I even remember one time on new year's 1886, I came with him to the bakery and picked the cake.
That was rather pleasant.

Enough about that, I went to a friend's house. Or at least I call her a friend for the sake of the mission.
Her name is Davi. She's like 19 I believe and is such a library when regarding the matters of fears,especially Slenderman.

I saw her while I observed the world from above as they say. She was involved with Mother and I believe for a while it looked like she would became Mother's servant, but turns out Mother got bored with her.

I didn't exactly know if she was here or not, but I thought it might as well check out since it would help me find out what universe I'm in, not to mention would help me out greatly with Slenderman.

I invited her to dinner under the pretense of my fake identity, Sidney Goldstein. She didn't accept at first, but I told her that I was going to offer her a job, which I technically am going to.

I'm going to see where this goes.

Happy new year by the way, to the ones reading.