Wolf!

Lucia the idiot left a timber wolf unsupervised. Do I even need to explain what went wrong?
It was Davi, of course it was. I had been expecting another ambush from her a while now.

"Hello Quaphsiel! The father sends his regards"

"Father?"

"The Archangel"

"Right, what does he want? No...I can already guess, no need for you to waste your precious oxygen telling me"

"Right!"

She started to charge at me with that gun of hers, very annoying if I may say so. I picked up a chair in the room and threw it at her. It wasn't much, but it was enough to distract her and give me a few seconds to escape. I ran down the stairwell & saw Luci on the way. I didn't have time to explain anything, so I just grabbed her hand and ran.

We managed to get in front of the hotel, but Davi was right on our trail. I was about to run when Luci stopped me. She was holding my hand tightly and had her eyes closed.

"What is wrong with you, we have to leave!" I screamed at her.

A black door-like portal opened up behind us, sucking us in. Once on the other side we were in a big flower field, which also had a wooden cabin nearby. Luci dragged me torwards it.
I've never really had to run this fast for like a century, it was exhausting. In the cabin I started panting from shear exhaustion as I threw myself into the bed in there.

"You...You..you could do that?"

"I'm a Smiling Man servant, what kind of servant doesn't have access to their fear's domain?"

"Right...forgot"

"We'll be safe here. The Smiling Man is still not going to be happy that I brought you here, but perhaps I could convince him."

"Wait, he's here?"

"Hmm...I don't feel his presence, so I'm guessing not. I'll explain once he gets here" She said as she stood in front of the bed I was so happily resting my eyes in.

"Ah..."

"Now"

"What?"

"Now I'd say you are as protected as you possibly could be. Provided I talk to the Smiling Man, why can't you just live here? There is nothing out there for you!"

"I guess...for the time being"

Despite my closed eyes, it was as if I could feel her smile.

I drifted into a dreamless sleep. A sleep which I enjoyed to the fullest, for nothing was wrong, nothing was right, nothing was. It was trully blissful.
When I woke up the next morning, she had gone somewhere. I made myself some breakfast, took a shower and changed my clothes.

She was kind of right, I could just live here!

Well, this was an interesting day...odd one, but interesting...

I think Cecilia has calmed down. She stayed in her room for the most part. I went ahead and checked on her a few hours ago, she seemed fine.

"Why do you even follow me around if you dislike me so much?" She asked once I entered her room, curled up on her bed.

"I don't dislike you Cecilia" I said as I sat down on the bed, next to her "You seem like a fun person, I just think that a century of being raised by the fears has warped your view of them negatively.That is the reason I contacted you in the first place! After finding your blog, I became worried and wanted to help"

"The Smiling Man lets you do that?"

"The Smiling Man gives me a lot of freedom to roam around, until I'm needed. Like the other day when I was sightseeing"

After a bit of a silence, I tried to break the ice a bit.

"What do you think we should do? Just stay here?"

"Well Luci, it's about as safe as we can get. I mean...EAT said that I was this..."

"Opposer?"

"Yeah, so...is there really anything I have to worry about?"

"I don't know, but perhaps the fears might want to gain advantage of you. I mean, the dying man is already in you? Have you asked him what he wants?"

"I have...He basically just took over me so that the other fears would back off. I'm as protected from the fears as I can get at this point. I'm like a fear repellant"

"Yeah. I'm just saying, it wouldn't hurt to think about what you want to do. Do you have a goal at this point?"

"Getting back to mom & dad"

"Alright, aside from that...what do you want to do?"

I assumed she would say something along the line of "nothing" or "nope, just that", but her answer surprised me a little.

"I want to meet my sister. You said she was coming, didn't you?"

"Yeah...ehm Whisper...something"

"That's not her real name"

"What is it then?" I asked, being honestly quite curious about that.

"Upsilon, Upsilon Zeak"

"That is an unusal name, doesn't really fit with your name or anything"

"Yeah...dad gave her a greek sounding name in order to be percieved as a big shot in the business world. Whisper was of course his favorite."

"Oh?"

"I wasn't even his daughter, so its not like I cared all that much"

"Hmm?"

"Upsilon is my half-sister, mother's side"

"You don't talk about your family much"

"Aside from Upsilon, they are all dead, so why bother"

"Fair enough...I guess"

"I don't think you and I talk that much anyway"

I shrugged, stood up, waved to her and walked out of the room. She had a point, we barely talk.

When I got back to my room, someone was waiting for me there. She had long flowy brown hair, wearing a sweatshirt and wielding a sword.

"Hello...Lucia"

I was startled. Didn't exactly know what to do at this point, but I figured remaining calm wouldn't hurt.

"Oh, I guess you don't know who I am. My name's Davi, father sends his regards"

"Father?"

"You know, Father, Uriel, The Fallen...The Archangel!"

"Right...What do you want here?"

"I came here to ask you to get rid of the dying man piece. You see, Father wants
your friend there in his arsenal, but can't do so with her being an opposer to the fears' powers and the dying man piece keeping her from being occupied"

"Heh...alright, what if I was interested in betraying a friend for you & the Archangel. What would I gain out of it?"

"Not being killed by me"

"Then go ahead...Timberwolf...kill me!"

She started to charge at me, swinging her sword in a random manner in my directiong. Timberwolfs can't be good servants. A lot of them have no powers, they are just cultists, that is all. There is nothing else about them.

Since she didn't give me much of a choice, I started to attack as well. I summoned a wind tunnel of rose pallets above my now exposed hands. I started to attack her with the rose pallets. I know that sounds a bit...lame, but they actually do deep cuts.

She didn't put up much of a fight, after a while of having multiple cuts, she ended up surrendering.
Davi passed out from the pain.

I don't even get Timberwolfs, why would they do this without asking for any powers to be able to do their jobs properly.

Like the nice person I am, I treated her various wounds. Not like it took me long, most of them were small. It is just how many cuts that makes it unbearable.

Rose brides, such as I tend to be able to do all sorts of things. But violence, unless necessary is not really my style.

I put Davi on the couch, but not until I had handcuffed her with some rope I got from the receptionist. I may be nice, but I'm not an idiot.

Guess Cecilia was wrong about being 100% protected.

Talk!

I finally calmed down. I still find it disrespectful what that girl did to me, but I kind of managed to cool of through a long walk. I came back to her watching TV. She seemed to have calmed down as well.

"Listen Cecilia, I...I didn't want to hit you like that. I guess I just couldn't control myself. I...I'm sorry" she said as I entered.

"I probably had it coming sooner or later. I guess someone slapping me is not the worst thing someone has done to me to make a point come across. Take the Fact for example"

She smiled at me and nodded before going back to watching her show.

I myself went for a walk again. I've begun to enjoy walks, its more calming than anything else.

"So, you are not mad at her?" The Fact asked.

"A bit, but she may have had a point. I just, can't believe that. I can't believe or even think about that spending a century with Slenderman & Mother meant nothing to them. It must have."

"I wouldn't be so sure, but I get your point"

"As far as I'm concerned, they are the only beings I care about anymore"

"What about Alicia or Lucia? Or Knight?"

"To hell with them, I don't care about them. What could they provide me? meaningless sex and a few hours a day of talking? That's not what I need right now, what I need is compassion...my parents"

"Slenderman & the Mother of Snakes?"

I nodded.

I waited a bit before continuing our discussion.

"So...fact, since you won't leave my body. Can you at least tell me what your plan is?"

"My plan? What makes you think I have a plan"

"The overtaking of my body?"

"Oh you misunderstand. What brought me to you in the first place was how afraid you were of knowing your life could end. It was only once I had invaded your dreams that I realized that you were an opposer. I wanted to reserve you, so that no one else claims you"

"So, you're not going to do anything?"

"Not unless you give me a reason to"

"Alright, since you are so wise...what should I do now?

"I'd recommend that you stay at the hotel, until it is no longer safe. Running will cause exhaustion and there is no real point to it. You are a force field, the fears can't really do much"

He had a point. I did the only sensible thing...I walked back and started reading some fearblogs. At least I can entertain myself, until I figure out the best plan to get back to mom & dad.

Encounter!

Lucia woke up yesterday morning.
She is still too weak to update, so I guess it's once again my turn. I didn't notice it last night, but she had a bunch of flesh wounds on her ranging from her arms and stomach.

Once again I felt kind of obligated to help her, since she helped me when I was ill. So I treated her wounds as best I could with the first aid kit I found here at the hotel.

It took a while, mostly because it was hard wrapping the bandages around her stomach, but eventually it was done. She slept through it, which kind of made it easier. Nothing worse than a fiddgeding person you are trying to treat the wounds of.

As soon as she woke up I got her up to date on the happenings with EAT & the Fact and all that. She seemed concerned, but it died down once we started another topic.

"What was that?" I asked her.

"Huh?" she asked.

"You came in here, apparently wounded last night and cried, saying that something was all your fault"

"Yeah...ehm" she said.

"I went down to Time Square to do some sightseeing and shopping an the like" she said "But I was approached by a girl wearing one of those old-timey newsboy hat followed by a black dog"

She took a bit of a breath before continuing.

"All the sudden everything went grey and time stopped. The girl I saw took out two knifes and started attacking me until I was laying on the ground, too weak to really move"

"Anyway, she asked me where you were & then said that she was going to be paying you a visit"

After hearing this I calmly went down and got her some breakfast, along with some for myself.

"Sounds like you'll be getting some visitors" The Fact said as I was walking down the stairs "Any idea who they might be?"

"I know exactly who it is"

"Who?"

"My sister and the Black Dog"

"You have a sister?"

"I have more siblings than that, but I guess she is the only one that is still alive"

"I'm guessing you guys don't get along"

"You know how it is. I mostly hate her bigoted attitude towards fears & her hypocrisy. She hates fear servants, but is the servant of the Black Dog."

"The black dog has servants?"

"She's a special case, if I recall"

 "I see"

I returned to Lucia who was sitting in bed, drawing something in a sketchbook she had.

"Here..." I said and put the tray on her lap.

"Thank you" she said and smiled.

"Cecilia..." she said all the sudden after a while of eating her french toast.

"What?"

"Did you like being a servant?"

"Ehm...I guess so, for me it was mostly just doing minor work and taking care of the crossroads"

"I see...some days I don't really know..."

In all the commotion I had forgotten that Lucia was a fear servants. It's not like it was obvious since she showed really no sign of being under fear control.

"One thing I've wondered Luci...are you a willing or an unwilling servant?"

"Depends what you mean?"

"I mean is the fear you work for manipulating you to do its bidding"

"Oh, I guess I'm a willing servant then, but only by that definition. Sometimes I think the Smiling Man doesn't really care. I kind of know he doesn't. I'm a pawn to him"

I was getting annoyed at all the chess motifs, but her working for the Smiling Man came as a bit of a surprise to me. I had theorized that she worked for the Blind Man or something.

"The fears, at least Slenderman & Mother are appreciative. They care for me and -"

She slapped me.

"You ignorant bitch!" she yelled at me.

"Are you really that dumb? I know you aren't stupid when it comes to the fears. Do you honestly think that thousands of people making blogs of their lives which almost always end in death or worse for fun? The fears...don't care. We are playthings to them, has that not entered your brain yet? Let's say you are right, let's say Slenderman and the Mother of Snakes do care about you...Why haven't they done a thing to get you back? Why didn't they swoop in and grant you immortality when you lost it? Why didn't they prevent the dying man from taking over you? That's because they don't care about you at all, you're a pawn Cecilia...like the rest of us" she yelled while occasionally becoming tearful.

I looked at her angrily for a moment, then just walked away. I lay down on the couch and went to sleep. I just didn't want to deal with her anymore, she's like all others.

I thought...

Night!

I woke up to a knock on my hotel room door around 2 AM. I got nervous, as I wasn't expecting someone, so I prepared for the worst to be behind it. It was Lucia, tears were falling down her pale-white face, she seemed cold & frightened.  She leaned against me as soon as I opened the door, leaning her head on my shoulder. Lucia wasn't the most tolerable, but so far has been the only "human" who has been nice to me on this journey, at least from the people I've physically met.

I reached passed her and closed the door.

"I'm sorry..." Lucia said.

"What's wrong?"

"I-...I just, sorry" she said while trying to hold back the flow of tears "its all my fault"

She seemed so tired and weakened that she was almost passing out from exhaustion, it was noticeable. I put her down on my bed where she fell asleep instantly.

I went out since I was up. I'm never am able to go back to sleep after being woken up with this, at least not until a couple of hours later.

"Hello, Cecilia" I heard from behind me as I was walking down the road.

I turned around swiftly & there he was, Jack...or Jack of All Trades as he likes to be called.
He was leaning against a building, drinking a glass of liquor.

"Oh, Jack...you startled me"

"How's it going Cecilia?" He asked.

"I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it seems that we have a bit of a predicament"

"How so?"

"Your plan of using Ira Sage as bait for Slenderman is not going to work."

"What?"

"He no longer exists, not in this universe anyway."

"Was that what Lucia was talking about?" I mumbled.

"What?"

"Nothing"

 "No, it just seems to me that with that happening due to a deal of mine with someone who shall remain anonymous & the fears going after you now because of the whole opposer thing, you have some issues"

"I guess, but its nothing that I can't handle"

"Do you even know what your goal is at this point?"

"Well of course, like it has been from the start, returning to Slenderman & Mother"

"Think about it, you have no goal. Not one that makes any sense anyways" He said and  took another sip of his drink

"What are you talking about?"

"Slenderman & Mother may have cared for you in the past, but do you really think they'll see you now as anything else but a tool?"

I had the unbelievable urge to slap him, but by some miracle I held it together.

"Why are you saying that, why are you even here?" I asked.

"Why am I anywhere? To make a deal of course"

"Do you think I'm an idiot? Do you think I don't know where a deal with you does to a person?"

"I'm just saying. You could make a wish. For the opposer thing to go away"

"Why do you even give me an opportunity? I already used up my deal with you"

"Well, I kind of like you. You remind me of me a bit"

I slapped him this time, I found that to be just the lowest insult someone like him could utter.

"I probably deserved that" he said and smiled.

"I'm not taking the damn deal"

He chuckled and looked at me for a while.

"Alright...but you know where to find me if you change your mind"

He then vanished, sort of merging into a portal-like thing in the wall of the building he was leaning on.

I went back to the hotel. Lucia was still sleeping on my bed, so I simply slept on the couch provided there. I didn't want to wake her up.

Dying!

So, here is what happened. I was in my room, just reading some fearblogs. Because, I wanted to make another one of those opinion posts like old-times, but I was interrupted by someone knocking on the door. Like an idiot I answered it thinking it was going to be someone from the hotel or Lucia or something.

It wasn't. It was some girl, didn't really recognize her. 

She had blonde hair and almost blue skin with water running down her delicate feet. I had expected a camper to have appeared much sooner. EAT and I have never gotten along, so I'm surprised she hasn't killed me yet or made me into a camper.

So EAT was right there in front of me & the first thing to come out of her mouth: "Eris..."

Always when EAT talks, I feel like there is an echo, it is irritating.

I jumped back in position, as if I was preparing to fight her, forgetting once again that I'm human.

"I'm not here to fight you Eris, unless you give me a reason to."

"What are you here for?"

"I want you, to join me"

"Become a camper?"

"No, I can't do that. It's impossible right now, however it would be pretty easy with your current condition and obsession with the Slenderman under regular circumstances."

I eased up a bit & invited her in, closing the door in order to have some privacy.

"What makes this irregular?"

"You, Eris...are a tool. Some would say that you are just a pawn, but I think you are a more valuable piece in the game than that. If we stay by the chess motif, I would say you'd be a Knight"

"A Knight?"

"Yes, valuable, but hard to base your strategy on"

"So..."

"You interest me Eris, you are different than the rest. You remind me of your girlfriend..."

"Alicia...so...I'm a resonator?"

"Oh no, quite the opposite my dear. An opposer..." she said, laughing. "You seem to have barrier around you which stops the fears influence over you. I mean, haven't you ever wondered why you were the only Lilim without snake features? That's because the Mother of Snakes did nothing to you, she gave you immortality but that was the extent of it, you were essentially a willing servant"

This was heavy...but...it kind of added up. I never did have snake features, did I? But still didn't explain what she wanted with me.

"So what do you want with me?"

"I want to study you, I want to study how strong your barrier is and what effect it would have on fears. Because it could land a fear advantage in the game to have you on their side"

"What makes you think I'll join you?"

It was then that she pulled out a knife from her pocket and pointed it at me.

"Because, while you may not be harmed with fear influence, I can still kill you. I doubt you'll fight to any noticeable extent with that shoulder wound" She said and pointed the knife at my shoulder.

She placed the knife against my throat.

EAT grew a liquid tentacle thing out of her back and locked the door with it. As amazing as that was, I grew to worry.

"Well...?" EAT asked.

It was then that something inside me, something familiar started to erupt. I could feel half of my body begin to melt. I screamed, it was aching. The left side of my body was decaying as I began to drop to my knees from the pain.

Something was taking over me, I knew that much. This something started to use my mouth, now deformed started to move on its own. Whatever this is spoke in a weird matter, presumably because of only having half my body to work with.

"EAT...leave her be" that something said.

"A dying man shard? But how...?"

"That is non of your business EAT. Point is that I found a loophole, although as you can clearly see, it isn't perfect." The dying man shard said, its voice sounding like someone was choking me.

"A loophole? That is interesting...something I could make use of as well. Why don't we share her?"

I had no say in this, I couldn't talk...all I could do was stay there listening to these two fears argue who could keep me, like I was an object or something.

"No EAT!"

They began to fight. The Dying man using my body to the best of its capabilities. It spewed out smoke in EAT's face, which EAT countered with some of its liquid thing. This went on for quite a while until EAT retreated. The fight was laughable though due to how silly it must've looked with the dying man sort of pushing my lefts side back and forth and tripping a lot.

"I'll be back for you Eris, I can't waste my time on this silly shard"

The dying man shard stopped the semi-control of me and my left half went back to normal.

"It'll surely be a pleasure working with you Morticia, you may call me The Fact"

The voice then stopped, as if it retreated to the back of my mind. I just went to bed and curled up there.
This wasn't what I wanted, none of this is. All I wanted was Slenderman & Mother back.

Where are they anyway, they could've appeared to me or helped me or something? Why didn't they?
Don't they care?

Healing!

I've been getting better. Although sometimes I still tend to black out, but that doesn't last for long.
While I was out it seems Lucia took care of me, how disgustingly adorable of her. Lucia is now having a jolly ol' time exploring the city...how fun.


I remember some of my dreams, mostly it was similar to that vision I had the other day where I was just shown my grave. Then sometimes I saw my own corpse, rotting in the street as people just walked on by, not even noticing it.

Being honest, that wasn't pleasant at all, although that kind of goes without saying.

The voice from my vision seems to show up. This is probably some fear, evident by the fact that almost NONE of the fears know my name apparently.

God, I was hoping the fears had just figured that I wasn't that big of a target and would just leave me alone.
Alright, I'm cancelling the trip to Belgium entirely now, at least until I get rid of whatever is possessing me.

Bad News x.x

Cecilia is not feeling well D:
We are probably going to postpone our trip to Belgium until she gets better <-<

I've been trying to help her, I even bought some soup ^-^
That didn't really work though x.x

She is ill, her fever is very high & she keeps talking in her sleep u.u
Mostly its just rambles about happenings in her dream.

"Shattering minds...all of them" is like the most frequent phrase she says over and over again in her sleep.

I hope she'll get better .w. I'm starting to worry!

Tombstone!

I'd like to start this post by apologizing to my dear Alicia for my kiss with Knight. I seem to have a different ideal of what cheating is. Perhaps to you Alicia me kissing Knight would be seen as a breach of our relationship, but I, as passionate as that kiss might have been, don't really see it as that. To me, a kiss is a form of expression, in the case of Knight an expression of thanks & nothing more.

Now that I have that out of the way, I can write about the only interesting thing that has happened to me this week.

Lucia & I decided that perhaps it would be foolish to go quickly, whoever took away my powers probably expects me to go to Belgium.

Lucia thought it was a trap, although she expressed it in her usual jumpy & quirky manner.

"Cecilia, we could stay in town for just a few more days, maybe a few weeks even. That way it will lead to less trouble & we can have fun exploring New York"

I've never been really excited for the wonders of New York City. I mean it's just another city, so its not like there are amusment parks or anything.

But she had a good point, I must admit that.

The only real interesting event was last night. I woke up because of some noise, that clearly didn't wake up Lucia as she was sleeping like the little weird angel that she is. Anyway all the sudden I felt a flash, sort of a blur appeared and I was all the sudden in a grey monochrome place.

It was dark. Right before me was a cemetery. Sort of a cliché one too with bats & cats prowling around.

As I stand in this cemetary I keep hearing something in the back of my head, almost like its in my subconscious, almost like a whisper.

"Mort-icia" that very something said.

Apparently my subconscious is not familiar that I already have a name.

"This Morticia..."

I looked around the cemetery, all the tombstones were empty. Except for one...mine, my name, birth & death date carved in real nicely.

After a while of me staring onto my grave, I was back in the hotel room.

I didn't like this, not one bit. If anything this reminded me why I started this mission at all. Sure, a lot of people would've just been happy with being off the fears radar. I however, need to become immortal again.

It's not just that I got used to the lifestyle, its the knowledge of not dying. Being able to watch civilization grow, being an almost god-like being in humans eyes.

I don't want to lose that.