End!

I met with Jack. He was never hard to track as you just had to stumble into the nearest bar and there he was. I don't know a lot about Jack, but I know that he grants wishes...even though they tend to have side effects, still...that is what he does.

"So kiddo, finally decided to crawl to me for a deal?" he said and laughed like a maniac.

"Yes!"

"Alright...anything particular you want?"

I wanted, what I stated in my last post. I wanted a life, a life of my own. It didn't take long to explain to him that.

"Alright..." he said and reached for a handshake "deal!"

Where am I now?

I don't know. Everything is dark and I'm surrounded by some sort of prison or a cage. I can't see anything past the bars.

All I have now are the clothes on my back & my laptop. I'm not sure what happened to the fact, but I haven't heard of him in what I perceive to be a long time. The clocks in my computer and on the internet don't work, they just show up a bunch of question marks. I don't know how long I've been here.

This is peaceful. This isn't death, this is fearless living. Outside of this I would have to deal with the fears. In here I can finally live in tranquility.

I won't be using this blog anymore. I don't see the point to it, considering that I'm no longer dealing with or helping the fears. I am just me.

I'm happy!

Goodbye.

Future!

What really is the point anymore?
I don't belong to the world of fears anymore...and frankly I don't even want to at this point. I would want a normal life, outside of the fears. I would want to live, read some blogs & maybe comment on them in peace. That is all I want at this point, all I can really hope for.

I know of only one man who could provide me with such a future.

Tears!

Davi appeared again, this time she wasn't easily warded off. This of course made it necessary for us to run outside in order to try to escape. Both me & Luci were rather tired, having just woken up and all.

We ended up in a dead end alley, Davi right behind us. It all happened so fast that I barely was able to grasp what was happening.

“Well…looks like you have no choice but to give yourself to father, Qaphsiel”

Luci & me looked around & it was obvious that there was nothing we could do.

“Looks like you are in quite a jam here” The fact pointed out, being of no use.

“Shut up!” I yelled at her.

Davi looked at us, preparing to kill us in order to please her lord, but something came up. It was Slenderman, honest to god Slenderman. He appeared! As you can imagine I was thrilled.

Davi seemed to stop once she saw Slenderman and vanished, the coward!

“Cecilia…” He said as soon as he arrived. "will you join me once again?"

I hesitated for a bit, not enough to really indicate no. But, it was long enough to make Slenderman impatient. He looked in my direction; I could almost feel his anger towards me. As a servant, I hadn’t really been the best up till this point. Not that Slenderman ever showed any indication that he cared.

Then he did something unexpected. He took up Lucia by the throat, while looking at me through the whole time & slowly started to squeeze her. I could hear the chocking sound well & even as it progressed heard some bones cracking. Lucia would've screamed had she been able to.

“STOP IT. I’LL JOIN YOU, I’LL COME BACK! THAT WAS MY PLAN ALL ALONG ANYWAY!” I yelled failing to hold back my tears. I would've done something if I could have  One move and I had been dead and I doubt Lucia would've wanted both of us to perish.

“Too late Cecilia” Slenderman said as he squeezed once more. He looked at me, laying there on all fours soaking the cement beneath me with tears as I saw him throw Lucia away like a common trash.

“What…what did you want from me? WHAT YOU BASTARD” I screamed at him.

“Obedience Cecilia… I've given you too much freedom, too much wiggle room to form thoughts. You’ve started to doubt not only me…but the others as well. I can’t tolerate that!”

After Slenderman disappeared again I crawled towards Lucia’s body. I didn't care anymore…

…nothing mattered. Who was I fooling anymore trying to hold back my emotions? My humanity? 

I just laid there, crying.

There was nothing else, I could do.

Timber!

Davi is no ordinary timberwolf. I don't know what the fuck she is, but an ordinary timberwolf she is not. Since when do timberwolfs have teleportation abilities? She just appeared in my room, somehow knowing that I had now moved to another hotel.

I went into a defensive position as if I was going to start a brawl with her.

"Come on Quaphsiel, just give up. It's not like anyone is here to kill you. In fact father has forbidden me from killing you. I'm just here for a chat"

I could feel the tension, she was up to something. I charged at her, upon which she teleported away, returning with a knife towards Lucia's throat.

"Ah ah ah! Calm down there Quaphsiel. Let's just talk about this, you pathetic human scum!"

Ouch, that hurt. I don't tolerate being called pathetic or scum for that matter.

We talked for a bit, none of which was all that important. After which I think I managed to ward her off, for the time being, simply because I promised to think about her offer.

 I didn't know what to do. Seeing Luci being held at knife point like that; I think that was the first point that I just started to want a normal life.

Wouldn't that be wonderful?

To have a normal life?

Without fear!

Fuck!

No, not the good kind I'm afraid. Lucia messed up, that idiot! Perhaps I'm the naive idiot for actually trusting her that everything would be OK, in the domain of the Smiling Man!

The Smiling Man appeared and honest to god, I think I've never been as terrified of a fear as when I saw him. He was probably like 9 meters tall. He was wearing a suit, not unsimilar to Slenderman's suit in terms of fabric, but he had multicolored dots all over it.

Did Smiley as they call them have a face? You bet your blog-reading behind he did! Long flowy red hair streamed from underneath his porkpie hat. His face was indescribable  it was almost as if somebody had just cut a face into his lack of one. It looked like he was bleeding.

I couldn't move. I of course wanted to do the sensible thing & run away. But it was as if the part of my brain that controlled movement just shut down out of fear.

He appeared just outside of the house, where I was just minding my own business.

"Cec-Cecilia" He said, kind of stuttering.

With every word he said, a bit of blood spewed from his cut mouth and onto me.

"Wha-What are yo-you doin-g her-here?" He asked.

I wiped the blood of my face.

"I...I was just here with Lucia, I needed protection from a timberwolf. She said that it would be alright"

"Lucia, ha-s no say in the mat-matter"

He looked back towards where Lucia was standing & looking concerned at me.

"I-" she uttered.

"Ce-Cecilia" he said, with more and more blood dripping from his mouth on the ground or on my head. "I thi-think yo-you shou-should join me. Beco-Become a rose-rose bride"

"I'd rather die!" I said, immediatly regretting the choice of words.

"Tha-That can be arr-arranged" he said.

He started to summon rose pallets out of thin air, which he casted in my direction. I tried to dodge, but unfortunately  I couldn't make it in time. The attack had too broad of a spread. I was cut. This wasn't the biggest, but the way the pallets cut deep into the flesh, it was rather effective considered he used about 500 of them in one attack. I'm not sure, since I don't look into flowers that much, but the petals looked like they were of a scarlet colored lily.

Yes, it seems to be true, fears can't influence me, sure...but they can attack me, they can intimidate me and work a fear-servant like deal with me. I think I just didn't think about that. I'm not shielded by the fears, my mind is...with the exception of the Fact.

I didn't know what to do. I was in the middle of a field, in front of the smiling man and was without weapon to defend myself with.

"I could..." I suddenly heard. "I could help you, if you'd let me! Let me overtake you, completely! Your mind's resistance is your doing, Morticia! Let me in!"

It was the fact. There was really little that I could do at this point. Lucia, the idiot...wasn't much help now was she?

I did it. I let him take over. Not a move I'm proud of, but I had no other option. After a moment, I could feel my consciousness being cast aside in favor of the Fact. My skin started to decay like before, but this time my entire body. The fact now had control, all I could do was "watch".

"Well well Smiling Man...it appears we've crossed paths, once again"

"S-So we hav-have!" He responded.

"You know Smiling Man, this could be avoided. The girl isn't a concern of yours!"

"Sh-She woul-would mak-make a pow-powerful we-weapon!"

"Against who? You realize...that we should be focusing on the Black Dog, right? Morticia is not going to help with that!"

"The do-dog is none of my co-concern. He's we-weak!"

"Perhaps...but think about it! I have chosen this girl as my host. We don't want to start a conflict here, now do we?"

"W-We cou-could al-always ma-make s-some so-sort of d-deal!"

"What kind?"

"I l-leav, but y-you wi-will as-assist me, b-become an al-ally!"

"Deal!" The fact said and used my arms to shake hands with what that...monster!

"G-Good!"

I blacked out, my consciousness anyway. The fact took that much control over me. I woke up hours later back in a hotel. Not the same one as before though.
Lucia was standing over me!

"Oh, thank goodness. You are alive!"

I took the liberty of slapping her.

"Lucia...next time, THINK!" I screamed.

"You know...I was just trying to help. You could've also thought of it yourself. You have had like a century of fear-related experience. I'm new at this, alright! I didn't know!" She yelled and teared up a bit.

"You're right..." I said.

She looked surprise. Alright, I may be a bit...odd and I guess difficult to work with. But she looked like it was such a big deal. I...I'm human after all, at least now. I can make mistakes.

She smiled at me, like almost always. It's beginning to get on my nerves!